[Shut up, you like it, Verso doesn't need to say; Clive falls so easily into playing his own part that it speaks for itself. The parts of Verso's laughter that he can't manage to hold back for the sake of the performance have a musicality to them, a lightness that almost – almost – veers it towards giggle territory. There Clive is, that theatre nerd; there's that inner child who may well save them both.]
Only if mon gentil chevalier will accept my favour.
[Hands full or otherwise placed, he waggles the tray-bearing forearm, gesturing with his head to the swaying swath of silk. And, granted, he could make things easier by placing everything down and handing the favour to Clive his damned self, but he has decided thusly: that the knight must be the gentleman, and the lovely waiter can be the lord in disguise, concealing his true identity until the time is right. Or until they both lose the plot and fall back into each other, the flame and the starlight, the hearth and the glimmer.
Regardless, the point is that in this story, lords, even in disguise, do not set their own places. Perhaps, then, Verso should have chosen another role, but it's too late to change that now, and so he watches Clive with bated breath. Or something.
In the meantime, though:]
I chose it especially for him. Il est absolument ravissant en rouge.
[ It's all very silly and ridiculous, just the way things had been when Uncle Byron ad-libbed his evil sorcerer lines and veered 'The Saint and the Sectary' very, very far off-course. Clive laughs again, maintaining the bare-boned outlines of his Sir Crandall as he moves to pluck the napkin-turned-kerchief from the bend of Verso's elbow, and touches the fabric first to his lips, then presses it to his chest. ]
I find myself undeserving of such praise. But, regardless... I shall keep your generous favor close to my heart.
[ Perhaps quite literally. This little silk square is likely going to accompany him across the Continent from here on out, tucked somewhere on his person to remind him of this sweet little charade.
Speaking of. Clive keeps it going as he divests Verso of the tray (the napkin gets hooked into his collar), being careful not to tip the empty glasses and shatter them all over the wooden floor; once he maintains balance, he carefully steps to the side to lower it next to a pile of wooden blocks. Not exactly the most romantic setup, but that's fine.
As he straightens: ] You remind me of someone I know, monsieur. A beautiful lord with starlit eyes.
[ A man far too important to even entertain the idea of getting drunk on the floor of a playroom, of course. He appraises Verso mock-politely, hands folded behind his back in still-perfect deference. ]
[Of course, Verso knew he'd been right about the red; that little flash of silk gets situated in the V of Clive's shirt, and Verso watches how its sheen catches the golden light, takes in the shadow that the folds in the fabric cast upon his chest, then looks up into Clive's gentled eyes and feels like he's the one who's undeserving.
Ah, but the show must go on, and Verso must Verso.]
Moi? I am but a humble serviteur, mon chevalier. However, should you see me as someone lordly regardless – beautifully so as you say, and mysteriously, I would suggest in turn – then I would accept, for none have gazed upon me with eyes so inviting and blue they put the sky the shame, and if I know aught at all, it's that woe will always befall the man who takes such graces for granted.
[Now, he'll take his seat upon the floor, briefly contemplating using the blocks as coasters but ultimately deciding that it would only make it easier for one careless brush of an arm to knock a glass over, and so everything keeps its place on the bare floor, even the lord-in-disguise and, soon, his knight-in-the-open. Then, he sets to work popping the cork from one of the bottles and pouring generous servings of its golden liquid into each of the glasses.]
[ Insisting on 'mysterious' is very Verso, and Clive chuckles about it as he settles next to him on the floor, folding his legs (a lot of pretzel-ing happening today) to make sure that he doesn't inadvertently knock anything over. ]
Made sweeter still by my current company, I'm sure. [ He knows he should be careful; dessert wine will wreak havoc if he lets it. But Clive loosens the reins of his self-restraint regardless, holding his hand out for the wine when Verso finishes pouring.
Sometimes, a situation is far too charming to be responsible. This, too, is a new and novel feeling as they clink the rims of their glasses and lets that soft chime echo in the mostly-bare room. ]
To you, my mysterious serviteur. [ A toast. The only thing that keeps Clive from swaying sideways to kiss Verso's smiling mouth is his insistence on not breaking character. Sir Crandall wouldn't be so brazen, after all. ] Such temptation you offer, even when I've promised my heart to my sworn lord. Perhaps you'll make a fool of me yet.
[ He sips his wine; his lovesick mind supplies that it tastes like honey. Tomorrow morning is going to be hell for him if he doesn't drink water. ]
[A kiss fails to materialise, and in its absence a challenge crystallises: entice the steadfast and loyal knight into foolishness. Not a difficult task at all, particularly for a man so given towards the same, but an appealing one to draw out, and so he does, positioning himself as primly as can be managed by a forestman on a floor, and he takes a generous sip of his own wine, letting a droplet of it linger on his lip before licking it away.]
I'd dare not dream to stake a claim on your heart, should it belong to another.
[Semantics; that just means he has to steal it, first.]
Besides, to win a chevalier's affections is no small feat indeed. What cause have I to believe it truly possible for one such as myself? Nay, it seems the only fool in the making is the man before you now.
[He slips further into ridiculousness with an easy comfort, a familiarity that suggests this is hardly his first time and an eagerness that clarifies it's been a long while since he's felt free enough to enjoy himself like this.
So: A look to Clive's glass. A glint to Verso's eyes.]
Is it to your liking – [He lowers his voice to a rumble.] – Monsieur Rosfield?
[ Hm. It seems... they're both not breaking character yet. Clive flicks his focus over Verso, at the prim posture and the polite distance only marred by that impossible-to-extinguish roguishness that Clive has always been so drawn to. So weathered by fate and circumstance, but never to kneel or buckle. Maybe it's a coping mechanism against the helplessness, to find small-scale competitions that he still has a chance at winning,
or maybe it's not that deep right now. Clive stops himself from digging deeper into it, and watches, instead, Verso licking his lips.
God, it's going to be difficult not to fold immediately. But he can try. Even despite how his heart still skips at the use of his to-be-claimed surname, and the boyish itch under his skin at the realization that, fuck, he really did propose to Verso, didn't he. Vaguely and nebulously, with no plans as to when or how, but still.
Keeping himself restrained is torture, actually. ] ...Very much, yes. [ Calm, steady. With just the slightest suggestion of flirtation nestled in the curl of his mouth. ] It may ruin me for all else.
[ Fire laps at the edge of Clive's consciousness. Scarlet chroma, yearning to reach and curl towards silver. Not yet, though― the play is ongoing. ]
Do you enjoy sweets, monsieur?
[ As he reaches for a bite of cheese, sharp and bitter to offset the wine. He purposely leans just into the circle of Verso's personal space as he does, shoulders almost brushing, chroma sparking just in Verso's periphery like gentle firecrackers. ]
[Speaking of ruin: that crackle of Clive's chroma sets Verso's shoulders alight, and he bites his tongue to keep himself from losing face beyond how he sways into the feeling and how he has to breathe it out of his system before he can shift back into character.]
Mm, I do. Particularly when they have a heat to them that laps at my tongue and brings a quite pleasing sting to my lips. There's naught I wouldn't do to partake of such delicacies, but alas, it seems fate has chosen to deny me them.
[He'll just have to take another sip of wine, pointedly looking down the rim of the glass at Clive. His expression gives little away, but not even he's masterful enough at masking to dull that still-bright light in his eyes. The way Clive plays along, how he meets him stride by stride, all those little hints that he's having to hold himself back – they're their own sequence of music, another unique chorus of I-love-yous that resonates just as strong inside of Verso as that burst of chroma had.]
Et tu, mon chevalier? You've chosen a rather fragrant cheese.
[In truth, Verso was too captivated by how the moment was manifesting in the look on Clive's face that he has no attention to spare for whichever cheese he'd grabbed from the board. But, he plays it off regardless, canting his head to the side as if his curiosity is something genuine.]
Am I right to assume that you favour a touch of bite?
[ He'd groan, if knights did that sort of thing. He would have sewn Verso onto pillows and kissed him breathless if they were trading banter in bed, but they have trays and glasses and toy trains to worry about, and this little act that becomes harder and harder to maintain the more obvious it becomes that they're not actually talking about anything beyond this miraculous want that they've developed for each other.
Clive is a poor liar, but he has some practice with pretending. Even so, he's a beast of instinct and emotion, and he can do nothing about the burst of desire that flares behind his eyes when Verso talks about denial (it burns him to think of denying Verso anything); a hound primed to whine, before it regroups and falls back into an obedient sit.
Curse Verso and his pretty mouth and his pretty words. Clive also takes another sip of drink, settling any impatience by letting himself wonder if Verso really does like sweets, beyond the provocation. ]
―I suppose I do, [ he finally manages. ] Something that challenges the palate. Something that surprises, and leaves me thinking of its teeth long after I've swallowed.
[ His free hand, the one bracing his weight against the ground, twitches. Fingers tent, itching for something to hold―
―and Clive kicks back the rest of the contents of his glass, not nearly tipsy enough to ruin this yet. ]
Are you certain we haven't met before? I don't think I could forget a face as lovely as yours.
[It's a delight to see that fire in Clive's eyes, to watch as it's made obedient. And it helps to keep Verso pushing through his own instincts and desires and the ever-increasing inclination to steal victory through yielding rather than earn it through holding firm. Clive speaks of challenge and that doesn't help; Clive's hands cast into the space between them something that Verso can't quite put to words and he thinks of all the ways he can leave the memory of his teeth behind, little ghosts of redness, little streaks of light.]
I may have something that's to your pleasure.
[He picks up a cube of cheese, displaying it between his fingers before popping it into his mouth and kissing the residue off of his own fingers. A moment spent chewing and swallowing – maybe he didn't think this tease entirely through – and then he puts down his own glass and reaches to refill Clive's, opting for a slow, methodical pour, and a lingering gaze to match, as if he's studying Clive for the answers they both already have.]
Nothing is ever certain. I've an eye for handsome knights with strong hands, but I've a memory poorer than most as well.
[Wine poured, he returns the bottle to the tray and leans back on his hands.]
Though I must say that my status as someone... so very comfortably beneath you, well, it does give me cause to wonder how our paths might possibly have crossed. Perhaps you ought to tell me the circumstances under which you find me familiar.
[ And oh, this feels like payback for their tryst before. The first time they discovered that they could share chroma, and their foolhardy competition to see who would buckle first under those new, intoxicating circumstances. Clive recalls eking out a tentative victory that time around (with citations needed), and this might just be the turnabout.
He steels himself. Gently. Not so much that it ruins the lightness of their acting, of course, because it's more important to enjoy the silliness than it is to keep tabs. After a moment to metaphorically sit on his itching hands, he lets himself appreciate the graceful way Verso's hands move, the way Verso's eyes catch dim lamplights and shift from silver to pale blue in certain angles. A breathtakingly beautiful man, made even more radiant by the content of his character, by the light he holds alongside his darkness.
Not a single thing about Verso is beneath Clive, and he'd push back against it if not for the fact that he thinks, maybe, that it might be innuendo. Clive would certainly like to have Verso under him in a different context, but that's for him to contemplate when he has a little more alcohol in him. So he takes another sip. ]
You sound much like my lord, for one. Speak like him, too― silver-tongued and quick-witted. [ His voice warms; it's agony, not being able to touch him. ] You tempt me to smile, much in the same way he does. No mean feat.
[ A low laugh. Ridiculous. ] Do you like playing tricks, monsieur?
And you speak with such praises that I know only envy for your lord, mon chevalier, for were I he, would I not be closer to where you are? Would you not know by now how sweet the wine is on my palate?
[For emphasis: he lifts himself up enough to take another sip of his own wine, generous again, draining what's left in his glass. Idly, he considers taking his next sip from Clive's glass, but he seems to be drinking from it with a purpose – and far be it from Verso to get in its way – so, he pours himself more instead, taking a sip that he savours for a while, staining his mouth with its taste.]
But, no, if had cause to believe that I could bring rise to your smile, you would never have seen the last of me, for I would have been so struck by its glory that naught else would draw my focus.
[Almost, anyway. That laugh does a good job of distracting him for a moment as he thinks of all the other ways Clive's voice can rumble, and at all the other ways that fire inside of him flares in wondrous ways. Gentle in some lights, soothing in others, always with an underlying passion that Verso wants to grow ever familiar with, in chaste ways and otherwise.
Trickery, though. Verso's lips curl into that half-smile of his, and he shrugs his free hand as if his manner of trickery is a simpler thing, a sleight of hand, a trick of the cards, a fake coin that grants him whatever fortune he seeks.]
I've been... known to dabble. Have you a favourite I could perform?
[ There. Silver-tongued. Funny, how remarks about his looks have always rang slightly degrading in the past― using words like pretty or handsome to suggest that Clive should be doing something else instead of fighting, or to downplay his proficiency with swords and chroma― but, out of Verso's mouth, they serve only to make something coiled and anxious unfurl gently in his stomach. It feels a strange thing to want to believe that the man he loves finds him attractive in turn, almost on the cusp of a vanity that Clive has never known; his first instinct, still, is to quell it gently before it can take root, but it's pleasant, regardless, to not feel condescended to.
He smiles more brightly. Giving in to that temptation, at least. (As if he hasn't been since the moment Verso stepped foot into the room.) The wine goes down like juice, its sweetness masking its alcohol content, and his second glass drains with unwise speed. ]
And now I know for certain that you're no mere serviteur. You're far too eloquent.
[ With apology to all the waiters out there who are very well-read. Maybe Clive is getting drunk already. He tracks the movement of Verso's hand with unobstructed interest, animal instinct still pleading with himself to snatch it and press kisses to its knuckles, but alas. His oral fixation will have to heel. ]
But, ah. I was thinking more along the lines of you tricking a gullible knight into thinking you're any less than a lord. [ Another reach towards the tray, this time to pluck a slice of salami to hopefully soak up some of the first signs of wine-induced fuzziness. Clive feels warm all over. ] Though...
[ God, it really is getting painful not to be able to touch. So: ] ...If you'd permit me to thank your clever hands for preparing this wonderful spread, it would give me much joy.
[ He sets his glass aside, and offers his palm. Still chivalrous. Surely this won't count as him folding first. ]
[Verso is fortunate (albeit questionably so) that his propensity towards lying and his rampant doofusosity have made him stubbornly persistent, because otherwise, that escalation of Clive's smile would have done him in entirely. As it stands, he looks away as if he doesn't have the right to gaze upon it – though really, it's because it's dangerously bright – passing it off as though the knight's observations have rendered the humble waiter shy.]
You flatter me still. Surely, were those accusations to prove true, then I've done naught to deserve such a display of gratitude.
[Still, he leans a little forward and takes another sip of wine before putting the glass down. The requested hand hovers near to his own chest as if unsure, though his mask slips a little more and his expression reveals only his continued inclination towards troublemaking.]
Thus, where you speak of my eloquence, I would remark on the openness of your eyes, and of your heart to accommodate all you see, and so too have I much to say on the gentleness of your hands, even where they rise rough with callouses – or perhaps especially so in those places. It is for those reasons that I accept, else I risk offending a good man who knows that which I have long failed to grasp.
[Now, he shamelessly hooks his fingers over Clive's palm with faux-shamefulness, an unworthy object of affection who cannot resist the greed of wanting to be wanted. Or something; the narrative keeps losing itself little by little as its layers get peeled back and Verso finds himself with less room to manoeuvre and a dwindling motivation to keep the performance going.
But far from a lost motivation, so he waits with quiet eagerness to see where Clive intends to take things next.]
[ There's a moment, near-comical, of actual and tangible distress when Clive thinks that Verso might refuse the request: again, if he were a hound, his ears would have drooped in mournful disappointment. But imaginary ears prick up, this time in unconcealed eagerness, when Verso finally obliges, mirroring the other man's desire to be wanted with a similar desire to adore with impunity.
And here it is― the coveted hand. Levin strikes him from head to toe, though Clive knows it's absurd to think so from such a chaste touch; it is, simply, that some part of him is always yearning, even when the object of his affection is sitting right next to him.
Fingers curl under fingers to hold the hook in place, then tug gently to bring their linked hands to Clive's lips. Each of Verso's raised knuckles get a soft, wine-stained kiss, followed by a gentle raking of Clive's thumbs along the back of bent fingers―
―and, well. The dam breaks. Clive will concede his loss if this counts as such, his full-bodied shift and his follow-up tug that brings Verso close enough that he can nuzzle against his hair, hands still held. ]
There you are, [ he chuckles, in a paltry attempt at continuing the performance. ] My love, my starlight. You couldn't hide from me if you tried.
[ Sir Rosfield has been pining for Lord Verso for ages now... or something, according to this boyish fantasy. A lowly footsoldier who resolved to become a knight after seeing the young prince hiding in the stables from his uncompromising family, or somesuch. ]
Maybe the lord curling up in his arms like a stubborn alley cat, seeking warmth separate from the one still cascading down his knuckles, lacks the capacity to hide from his knight, but the man behind the lord – oh, how he hides. He wouldn't even have to try all that hard. And even now, Verso finds another way to hide, tucking his face against Clive's neck, pressing lips and tongue, then teeth, to his pulse. Expressing and absorbing and pretending that his thoughts haven't wandered just a bit elsewhere.]
Never would I want to.
[This is the truth, too; if it does come to pass that he disappears, then it won't be something driven by want. Just need. Self-loathing. The feeling like he isn't good for anything besides bringing about suffering. The usual.
And the wrong mood for a moment defined by silliness, and ridiculousness, and each man's pursuit of the other over wine and charcuterie and a floor cluttered with memories that belong to neither of them. He doesn't quite manage to cast it aside, but he does succeed at grasping back onto that brighter truth he's just shared.]
The humble servant happens to like when his kind knight knows exactly where he's been, all along.
[Very much, actually. Idly, his mind flits back to the subject of hiding, and he wonders if maybe even that impulse will be different with Clive. Maybe rather than hoping to never wake up, he'll hope to be saved.
Probably not. But it's a nice thought to have, regardless.]
[ It would be a lie to say that Clive hasn't wondered if Verso would ever let him go. It's been a lingering thought in the back of his mind since the time he told Verso to go on ahead in those snowy fields, and watched him walk away with exhausted resignation; a part of Clive knows that Verso may disappear if he truly believed it would be for the best for Clive not to bear the weight of his so-called burdens.
A thing that would shatter Clive if it happened. But a thing that would scarcely deter him from scouring every inch of the Continent in search of Verso, regardless. He would spend an eternity dragging his feet over rock and grass if it meant he could have this again, the feeling of pulling Verso back into his arms to hold. His skittish, overthinking black cat.
He sighs into the feeling of teeth, and moves to kiss the crown of his waiter-lord's head, where night-dark hair gradients into silver. A rare color in Lumiere, and one Clive associates with Verso now. (Sorry, Alicia.) ]
Then this humble knight requests his love to stay where he can keep his blue eyes on him.
[ Not in a stifling way; they're the both of them grown men, and have leave to do what they need, when they need. But when it matters, Clive hopes that he can be someone that Verso comes back to. The reason why he offered 'Rosfield' in the first place; to be somewhere safe to stay, to take shelter in. ]
Your Shield is happiest when he's protecting you, you know.
[Verso likes Clive's specificity here – his blue eyes – like his fully felt yet ridiculously spoken sentiments might have meant exactly what he'd wanted them to mean. Likes the heavy breath of that sigh, too, and the softer breathing that follows the kiss to his hair. Once again, that feeling of tiredness settles upon him, probably brought on by his momentary diversion into what it means to hide, but it's the good kind. The kind that keeps him from bucking against the notion of being something to protect.]
I know. You probably should have thought of that before falling for the charmingly reckless rapscallion with wanderlust, but...
[A soft rumble of a laugh, delivered into the crook of Clive's neck. He still smells of the oils Verso had washed his hair with the night before, and he breathes the scent in, how it sits upon his skin, mingling with his own aroma. Were sleep a kinder thing to Verso, he might have let his eyes flutter shut and taken a moment to just appreciate how much he loves this knight-dog-fire of a man, but instead he snakes himself free enough to grab his wine and lift it into another toast.]
I'm glad you went with the whole fool-in-love thing.
[This time, he follows the sip he takes with that long-denied (it was like five minutes, Verso, don't be dramatic) kiss, savouring it with the same enthusiasm with which he'd embraced their little bit of theatre. Maybe he's not in the most comfortable position on the floor – and perhaps some of the blocks behind his feet get scattered as he manoeuvres himself into place – but oh well, who cares, the knight has found his lord, and the lord has more favours to give him than the silk still tucked into his shirt.
[ And maybe Verso should have thought twice before letting the weird, damaged man who needs to love to survive into his space. There may be time yet for regrets, but Clive hopes that they don't darken their doorsteps yet.
Glasses clink, and Clive finally gets the kiss he was angling for. As expected, it tastes sweeter than the alcohol, and the pleasant fuzziness building in his skull fluffs itself to more fullness, more softness. The world takes on a cottony texture, a warmer glow; that filter pushes up against the back of Clive's eyes, and makes ocean-blue twinkle lighter like aquamarine.
His smile stretches his scar. Even the jagged edges of it seem to take on a more rounded form. ]
I don't recall ever advertising myself as smart. [ Speaking of acting the fool. Clive is happy to float in this foolspace for a little longer, bolstered by wine and his lingering good mood. ] You're the clever one. And you deserve to meet me at my level, every once in a while.
[ More playful than self-deprecating. Another quick peck, and Clive glances sideways at the toy train set lingering next to their tray of food. ]
...If you'd permit me to act a fool for a bit longer, [ he hums, ] may I try to impress you?
[ Okay, he's definitely floating towards inebriation. Usually he's far better at holding his drink, but fatigue and near-death experiences and, honestly, a lack of hydration are all contributing to his current fuzziness. Harmless, in the long run. ]
[Oh, Verso isn't quite sure how he feels about that self-deprecation, playful though it comes across as being. He wants to go back to hearing Clive speak about his eyes and his protectiveness and his happiness. Remaining fools is a good enough consolation prize that it doesn't even feel like a consolation, though, so Verso bites his tongue on the matter of which one is truly out-doofuses the other, and whether Clive could ever truly be considered a fool at all, and he follows his focus to the train set.
It's emblematical of the other Verso, he knows, but not in a way that resonates with him. It's one toy among countless more; he scarcely remembers it beyond an abstracted understanding that he had always loved trains, which must have meant he spent a great deal of time playing with them.
And which now means that he's curious to see what Clive has in mind for them – if they are indeed connected to whatever it is he has in mind. An intrigue made all the more, well, intriguing by how Verso can see the buzz of that honeyed wine working its way through him, brighting his eyes and rosing his cheeks just enough to be noticeable in the dim light.
He lifts himself back up, not wanting to miss a moment, and shoots Clive an affirming finger.]
Always try to impress me with your foolishness, mon feu.
[It's his love language, secondary only to touch.]
[ In Clive's slightly-tipsy, very lovedrunk head, the significance of the trains are secondary to the fact that they're there, available to be utilized as a potential tool to impress (?) Verso with. And with the encouragement to do so, he lifts himself onto his feet (not swaying yet, still maintaining posture and balance) and steps over the tray to get closer to the setup, where he crouches and starts to fix some of the skewed tracks to make them link more properly.
Eventually, he succeeds in creating a closed loop. Not a perfect circle, but an oblong oval that meanders in certain parts. Once that's done, he performs a cursory inspection of the trains available to him, and tests their structural integrity with a few quick rolls against the floor―
―all of this done with complete earnestness, of course. Clive will be Clive.
Once he finishes that, he settles the toy on the track with a flourish. ]
Regardez.
[ The vous-form, formal. Back to theatrics, though it's a little shier this time around; Clive's expression pinches inwards as he summons chroma, jade-green this time instead of crimson, and lets it pool around his fingertips. Benedikta would have his head if she knew he was using her powers for such improper uses, but recalling the shape of her ire makes Clive chuckle under his breath instead of reconsider.
A low inhale to steady himself, and he passes the gust of wind from his hand to the train's little wheels. Green chroma clings to the toy and churns the air under it to send it shooting along the tracks, as if it's been given wings; the room fills with the soft sound of it clattering along. ]
[Better at holding his alcohol given his history of grabbing for the absinthe when the need insists that it's arisen, Verso is barely abuzz when Clive sets to work on the trains, and so once he realises what's happening, the impact it has on him is almost sobering. Because those memories he'd thought had simply faded away with time stir up a never-known boyishness inside of him, a sense of mourning for that little boy at the heart of the Canvas who knows he'll never grow up.
And while Verso understands why Clive presented it as something foolish – they are grown men watching a toy train circle (oval?) around a track – he doesn't laugh or play up the silliness of it, and his smile is more wistful than anything, lost in a past he's never known.]
Choo-choo.
[He says after a moment in a quieted voice, unable to rejoin Clive in their theatrics from before right away. Over the years, he's encountered Verso's soul a few times, that faceless boy overlooking his destroyed world, confused and unsure and jailed by a Canvas that Verso can only assume he no longer wants to paint. Not with everything that's happened; not with how it's destroying his family. He sits with him now in a way his family doesn't seem to, anymore, his mother focused on her new creations, his father and one sister on his destruction, his other sister overwritten by their mother's chroma.
Summoning forth his own chroma, he lights up the windows and thinks, too, about cold winter nights at the station, waiting for the last train back into Lumiere and watching it as it curled around the mountains, a light in the darkness, a promise of warmth and home and rum and hot chocolate by the fire, a book in his lap, music playing on the gramophone. All things he revisit now, he knows, but this isn't that manor and he is not that Verso. Even if those are his real memories from things he really did in this canvas world.
It's been a moment since he's said anything. I'll probably be a bit, still, before he finds the words. So, instead:]
It appears you're now the one who has misled me, gentil chevalier. You're no fool at all, but a thief, for you have stolen the wind from my lungs.
[ Verso's silence cuts through the cotton of Clive's slight buzz. Even when it's broken by that disarmingly childish 'choo-choo', the expression rings less emphatic and more subdued, like trying to access an enthusiasm that's difficult to curl fingers around.
Humbling, that. Clive watches as silver lights up the toy as it makes it circular journey on the floor, around and around and around, then gets up to make his way back to the coveted spot by Verso's side, unable not to be near him when his mood shifts to something so wistful. ]
No, [ he murmurs, head shaking. ] I'm still a fool.
[ Because clearly, he's raked tipsy hands along something raw and aching. A misstep, a thoughtless fumble. This manor is full of things that are only half-remembered and absent of content, and it would have been wiser, perhaps, for Clive to leave these things (especially the things in the Other Verso's room) well enough alone.
His palm finds the small of his partner's back, and Clive lets their shoulders brush. The wooden train clatters on, still energized by green-tinged wind. ]
I can make it stop.
[ Quietly, offering Verso the floor to talk about it or not. It's fine, either way: there's still more wine, and Clive isn't going anywhere. His expression slants, apologetic without snuffing the warmth of his eyes, mindful without wanting to make things too heavy. ]
[Verso doesn't want it to stop. What's going through him now is a need-to-have feeling, something that will only cause harm if it's brushed aside and ignored. To whom he isn't certain – he holds the hearts and the memories and the dreams of so many Versos inside of himself – but he doesn't suppose that matters because it doesn't change anything.
At Clive's touch, Verso leans into him, still shaking his head over that I'm-still-a-fool correction. He himself is incapable of predicting how he will and won't feel about his other selves at any given moment, and it isn't like he's reacted in any sort of way to anything in this room prior to now. Hell, his general feelings about being in the manor have always veered neutral, detached, like it's almost an ordinary house, albeit an extraordinarily luxurious one. Of course Clive didn't think twice of it. At least as far as Verso is concerned.
So, in a lightly and humorously scolding tone:]
If you're going to stop anything, then stop calling yourself a fool.
[It's a good thing that Verso's fallen silent, though he hasn't the strength to say so. Were he with anyone else, he might have simply pretended that seeing the train come to life wasn't impacting him so deeply instead of listing to those voices inside of him – his voices – telling him to be honest about this.
He watches the train make another lap around the track, then hums in contemplation.]
It's missing something. Think you could add some smoke to the chimney?
[ A not-particularly-helpful force of habit, perhaps, that Clive assumes his missteps despite them not being spelled out. He spent too many years with his hands folded behind his back, bowing his head and taking blame for things he didn't recall doing. Deep-rooted pathologies whisper that it's wicked of him to feel relieved when Verso tells him not to demean himself.
He ignores those voices, and focuses on the one that matters. Verso's. His tacit permission to keep the trick going, and the request that follows.
All Clive can hope is that none of this hurts. (Not too much, anyway.) He tips, and lets the sides of their heads touch. ]
Without scorching it? [ Regarding the smoke. Hm, is a quiet placeholder as he thinks about how best to go about doing this. ] I can try.
[ Still leaning against Verso, Clive lifts his hand and summons the smallest mote of fire he can manage. Slightly bigger than a pea, the little will o' wisp floats to the top of the train's chimney and hovers above it as the train makes its rounds.
Not quite smoking; more a beacon than anything else. But he's not about to risk an actual fire in a mansion that, in another place and another time, has been ravaged by it－ god knows he's given Verso enough burn damage for a lifetime, and just a day prior. ]
[Maybe there's no smoke, but the effect is still nice. Verso can picture – not remember, just imagine – hearing about how the chimneys worked as a boy and wondering if that meant he would see flames rise from them instead of smoke, so he can appreciate this little realisation of a fantasy he's never had, too.]
Nah. It's looking pretty good.
[And he watches for a while in silence, until he notices a shift in the chroma in the room, melancholic and otherworldly. It settles on Verso's shoulders like a chill, and when he looks up from a train he notices the boy standing there watching them. Faceless and gray, dressed in finery, the smoke of Gommage wafting off of him.
Verso's met him a few times over the decades, always presumably by chance. He'll run into him looking over one scene of destruction or another, or else reflecting on a once-loved place or on people who he's starting to forget and the pains they've inflicted upon him that he'll never escape. Clive might have come across him too – Verso doesn't know – but he gestures towards him all the same, a gentle look who's here before he focuses back on the faceless boy.]
Hi.
[This time, the boy doesn't speak. He simply approaches the train, steps slow and unsure, then holds out one of his fingers above the wisp, keeping it in place and following the train as it circles. It takes a moment for Verso to realise what he's doing, but when he notices that Gommage smoke rising from his finger, he lets out a soft laugh.]
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Only if mon gentil chevalier will accept my favour.
[Hands full or otherwise placed, he waggles the tray-bearing forearm, gesturing with his head to the swaying swath of silk. And, granted, he could make things easier by placing everything down and handing the favour to Clive his damned self, but he has decided thusly: that the knight must be the gentleman, and the lovely waiter can be the lord in disguise, concealing his true identity until the time is right. Or until they both lose the plot and fall back into each other, the flame and the starlight, the hearth and the glimmer.
Regardless, the point is that in this story, lords, even in disguise, do not set their own places. Perhaps, then, Verso should have chosen another role, but it's too late to change that now, and so he watches Clive with bated breath. Or something.
In the meantime, though:]
I chose it especially for him. Il est absolument ravissant en rouge.
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I find myself undeserving of such praise. But, regardless... I shall keep your generous favor close to my heart.
[ Perhaps quite literally. This little silk square is likely going to accompany him across the Continent from here on out, tucked somewhere on his person to remind him of this sweet little charade.
Speaking of. Clive keeps it going as he divests Verso of the tray (the napkin gets hooked into his collar), being careful not to tip the empty glasses and shatter them all over the wooden floor; once he maintains balance, he carefully steps to the side to lower it next to a pile of wooden blocks. Not exactly the most romantic setup, but that's fine.
As he straightens: ] You remind me of someone I know, monsieur. A beautiful lord with starlit eyes.
[ A man far too important to even entertain the idea of getting drunk on the floor of a playroom, of course. He appraises Verso mock-politely, hands folded behind his back in still-perfect deference. ]
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Ah, but the show must go on, and Verso must Verso.]
Moi? I am but a humble serviteur, mon chevalier. However, should you see me as someone lordly regardless – beautifully so as you say, and mysteriously, I would suggest in turn – then I would accept, for none have gazed upon me with eyes so inviting and blue they put the sky the shame, and if I know aught at all, it's that woe will always befall the man who takes such graces for granted.
[Now, he'll take his seat upon the floor, briefly contemplating using the blocks as coasters but ultimately deciding that it would only make it easier for one careless brush of an arm to knock a glass over, and so everything keeps its place on the bare floor, even the lord-in-disguise and, soon, his knight-in-the-open. Then, he sets to work popping the cork from one of the bottles and pouring generous servings of its golden liquid into each of the glasses.]
Please, join me. I hope you like sweet wines.
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Made sweeter still by my current company, I'm sure. [ He knows he should be careful; dessert wine will wreak havoc if he lets it. But Clive loosens the reins of his self-restraint regardless, holding his hand out for the wine when Verso finishes pouring.
Sometimes, a situation is far too charming to be responsible. This, too, is a new and novel feeling as they clink the rims of their glasses and lets that soft chime echo in the mostly-bare room. ]
To you, my mysterious serviteur. [ A toast. The only thing that keeps Clive from swaying sideways to kiss Verso's smiling mouth is his insistence on not breaking character. Sir Crandall wouldn't be so brazen, after all. ] Such temptation you offer, even when I've promised my heart to my sworn lord. Perhaps you'll make a fool of me yet.
[ He sips his wine; his lovesick mind supplies that it tastes like honey. Tomorrow morning is going to be hell for him if he doesn't drink water. ]
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I'd dare not dream to stake a claim on your heart, should it belong to another.
[Semantics; that just means he has to steal it, first.]
Besides, to win a chevalier's affections is no small feat indeed. What cause have I to believe it truly possible for one such as myself? Nay, it seems the only fool in the making is the man before you now.
[He slips further into ridiculousness with an easy comfort, a familiarity that suggests this is hardly his first time and an eagerness that clarifies it's been a long while since he's felt free enough to enjoy himself like this.
So: A look to Clive's glass. A glint to Verso's eyes.]
Is it to your liking – [He lowers his voice to a rumble.] – Monsieur Rosfield?
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or maybe it's not that deep right now. Clive stops himself from digging deeper into it, and watches, instead, Verso licking his lips.
God, it's going to be difficult not to fold immediately. But he can try. Even despite how his heart still skips at the use of his to-be-claimed surname, and the boyish itch under his skin at the realization that, fuck, he really did propose to Verso, didn't he. Vaguely and nebulously, with no plans as to when or how, but still.
Keeping himself restrained is torture, actually. ] ...Very much, yes. [ Calm, steady. With just the slightest suggestion of flirtation nestled in the curl of his mouth. ] It may ruin me for all else.
[ Fire laps at the edge of Clive's consciousness. Scarlet chroma, yearning to reach and curl towards silver. Not yet, though― the play is ongoing. ]
Do you enjoy sweets, monsieur?
[ As he reaches for a bite of cheese, sharp and bitter to offset the wine. He purposely leans just into the circle of Verso's personal space as he does, shoulders almost brushing, chroma sparking just in Verso's periphery like gentle firecrackers. ]
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Mm, I do. Particularly when they have a heat to them that laps at my tongue and brings a quite pleasing sting to my lips. There's naught I wouldn't do to partake of such delicacies, but alas, it seems fate has chosen to deny me them.
[He'll just have to take another sip of wine, pointedly looking down the rim of the glass at Clive. His expression gives little away, but not even he's masterful enough at masking to dull that still-bright light in his eyes. The way Clive plays along, how he meets him stride by stride, all those little hints that he's having to hold himself back – they're their own sequence of music, another unique chorus of I-love-yous that resonates just as strong inside of Verso as that burst of chroma had.]
Et tu, mon chevalier? You've chosen a rather fragrant cheese.
[In truth, Verso was too captivated by how the moment was manifesting in the look on Clive's face that he has no attention to spare for whichever cheese he'd grabbed from the board. But, he plays it off regardless, canting his head to the side as if his curiosity is something genuine.]
Am I right to assume that you favour a touch of bite?
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Clive is a poor liar, but he has some practice with pretending. Even so, he's a beast of instinct and emotion, and he can do nothing about the burst of desire that flares behind his eyes when Verso talks about denial (it burns him to think of denying Verso anything); a hound primed to whine, before it regroups and falls back into an obedient sit.
Curse Verso and his pretty mouth and his pretty words. Clive also takes another sip of drink, settling any impatience by letting himself wonder if Verso really does like sweets, beyond the provocation. ]
―I suppose I do, [ he finally manages. ] Something that challenges the palate. Something that surprises, and leaves me thinking of its teeth long after I've swallowed.
[ His free hand, the one bracing his weight against the ground, twitches. Fingers tent, itching for something to hold―
―and Clive kicks back the rest of the contents of his glass, not nearly tipsy enough to ruin this yet. ]
Are you certain we haven't met before? I don't think I could forget a face as lovely as yours.
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I may have something that's to your pleasure.
[He picks up a cube of cheese, displaying it between his fingers before popping it into his mouth and kissing the residue off of his own fingers. A moment spent chewing and swallowing – maybe he didn't think this tease entirely through – and then he puts down his own glass and reaches to refill Clive's, opting for a slow, methodical pour, and a lingering gaze to match, as if he's studying Clive for the answers they both already have.]
Nothing is ever certain. I've an eye for handsome knights with strong hands, but I've a memory poorer than most as well.
[Wine poured, he returns the bottle to the tray and leans back on his hands.]
Though I must say that my status as someone... so very comfortably beneath you, well, it does give me cause to wonder how our paths might possibly have crossed. Perhaps you ought to tell me the circumstances under which you find me familiar.
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He steels himself. Gently. Not so much that it ruins the lightness of their acting, of course, because it's more important to enjoy the silliness than it is to keep tabs. After a moment to metaphorically sit on his itching hands, he lets himself appreciate the graceful way Verso's hands move, the way Verso's eyes catch dim lamplights and shift from silver to pale blue in certain angles. A breathtakingly beautiful man, made even more radiant by the content of his character, by the light he holds alongside his darkness.
Not a single thing about Verso is beneath Clive, and he'd push back against it if not for the fact that he thinks, maybe, that it might be innuendo. Clive would certainly like to have Verso under him in a different context, but that's for him to contemplate when he has a little more alcohol in him. So he takes another sip. ]
You sound much like my lord, for one. Speak like him, too― silver-tongued and quick-witted. [ His voice warms; it's agony, not being able to touch him. ] You tempt me to smile, much in the same way he does. No mean feat.
[ A low laugh. Ridiculous. ] Do you like playing tricks, monsieur?
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[For emphasis: he lifts himself up enough to take another sip of his own wine, generous again, draining what's left in his glass. Idly, he considers taking his next sip from Clive's glass, but he seems to be drinking from it with a purpose – and far be it from Verso to get in its way – so, he pours himself more instead, taking a sip that he savours for a while, staining his mouth with its taste.]
But, no, if had cause to believe that I could bring rise to your smile, you would never have seen the last of me, for I would have been so struck by its glory that naught else would draw my focus.
[Almost, anyway. That laugh does a good job of distracting him for a moment as he thinks of all the other ways Clive's voice can rumble, and at all the other ways that fire inside of him flares in wondrous ways. Gentle in some lights, soothing in others, always with an underlying passion that Verso wants to grow ever familiar with, in chaste ways and otherwise.
Trickery, though. Verso's lips curl into that half-smile of his, and he shrugs his free hand as if his manner of trickery is a simpler thing, a sleight of hand, a trick of the cards, a fake coin that grants him whatever fortune he seeks.]
I've been... known to dabble. Have you a favourite I could perform?
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He smiles more brightly. Giving in to that temptation, at least. (As if he hasn't been since the moment Verso stepped foot into the room.) The wine goes down like juice, its sweetness masking its alcohol content, and his second glass drains with unwise speed. ]
And now I know for certain that you're no mere serviteur. You're far too eloquent.
[ With apology to all the waiters out there who are very well-read. Maybe Clive is getting drunk already. He tracks the movement of Verso's hand with unobstructed interest, animal instinct still pleading with himself to snatch it and press kisses to its knuckles, but alas. His oral fixation will have to heel. ]
But, ah. I was thinking more along the lines of you tricking a gullible knight into thinking you're any less than a lord. [ Another reach towards the tray, this time to pluck a slice of salami to hopefully soak up some of the first signs of wine-induced fuzziness. Clive feels warm all over. ] Though...
[ God, it really is getting painful not to be able to touch. So: ] ...If you'd permit me to thank your clever hands for preparing this wonderful spread, it would give me much joy.
[ He sets his glass aside, and offers his palm. Still chivalrous. Surely this won't count as him folding first. ]
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You flatter me still. Surely, were those accusations to prove true, then I've done naught to deserve such a display of gratitude.
[Still, he leans a little forward and takes another sip of wine before putting the glass down. The requested hand hovers near to his own chest as if unsure, though his mask slips a little more and his expression reveals only his continued inclination towards troublemaking.]
Thus, where you speak of my eloquence, I would remark on the openness of your eyes, and of your heart to accommodate all you see, and so too have I much to say on the gentleness of your hands, even where they rise rough with callouses – or perhaps especially so in those places. It is for those reasons that I accept, else I risk offending a good man who knows that which I have long failed to grasp.
[Now, he shamelessly hooks his fingers over Clive's palm with faux-shamefulness, an unworthy object of affection who cannot resist the greed of wanting to be wanted. Or something; the narrative keeps losing itself little by little as its layers get peeled back and Verso finds himself with less room to manoeuvre and a dwindling motivation to keep the performance going.
But far from a lost motivation, so he waits with quiet eagerness to see where Clive intends to take things next.]
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And here it is― the coveted hand. Levin strikes him from head to toe, though Clive knows it's absurd to think so from such a chaste touch; it is, simply, that some part of him is always yearning, even when the object of his affection is sitting right next to him.
Fingers curl under fingers to hold the hook in place, then tug gently to bring their linked hands to Clive's lips. Each of Verso's raised knuckles get a soft, wine-stained kiss, followed by a gentle raking of Clive's thumbs along the back of bent fingers―
―and, well. The dam breaks. Clive will concede his loss if this counts as such, his full-bodied shift and his follow-up tug that brings Verso close enough that he can nuzzle against his hair, hands still held. ]
There you are, [ he chuckles, in a paltry attempt at continuing the performance. ] My love, my starlight. You couldn't hide from me if you tried.
[ Sir Rosfield has been pining for Lord Verso for ages now... or something, according to this boyish fantasy. A lowly footsoldier who resolved to become a knight after seeing the young prince hiding in the stables from his uncompromising family, or somesuch. ]
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Maybe the lord curling up in his arms like a stubborn alley cat, seeking warmth separate from the one still cascading down his knuckles, lacks the capacity to hide from his knight, but the man behind the lord – oh, how he hides. He wouldn't even have to try all that hard. And even now, Verso finds another way to hide, tucking his face against Clive's neck, pressing lips and tongue, then teeth, to his pulse. Expressing and absorbing and pretending that his thoughts haven't wandered just a bit elsewhere.]
Never would I want to.
[This is the truth, too; if it does come to pass that he disappears, then it won't be something driven by want. Just need. Self-loathing. The feeling like he isn't good for anything besides bringing about suffering. The usual.
And the wrong mood for a moment defined by silliness, and ridiculousness, and each man's pursuit of the other over wine and charcuterie and a floor cluttered with memories that belong to neither of them. He doesn't quite manage to cast it aside, but he does succeed at grasping back onto that brighter truth he's just shared.]
The humble servant happens to like when his kind knight knows exactly where he's been, all along.
[Very much, actually. Idly, his mind flits back to the subject of hiding, and he wonders if maybe even that impulse will be different with Clive. Maybe rather than hoping to never wake up, he'll hope to be saved.
Probably not. But it's a nice thought to have, regardless.]
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A thing that would shatter Clive if it happened. But a thing that would scarcely deter him from scouring every inch of the Continent in search of Verso, regardless. He would spend an eternity dragging his feet over rock and grass if it meant he could have this again, the feeling of pulling Verso back into his arms to hold. His skittish, overthinking black cat.
He sighs into the feeling of teeth, and moves to kiss the crown of his waiter-lord's head, where night-dark hair gradients into silver. A rare color in Lumiere, and one Clive associates with Verso now. (Sorry, Alicia.) ]
Then this humble knight requests his love to stay where he can keep his blue eyes on him.
[ Not in a stifling way; they're the both of them grown men, and have leave to do what they need, when they need. But when it matters, Clive hopes that he can be someone that Verso comes back to. The reason why he offered 'Rosfield' in the first place; to be somewhere safe to stay, to take shelter in. ]
Your Shield is happiest when he's protecting you, you know.
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I know. You probably should have thought of that before falling for the charmingly reckless rapscallion with wanderlust, but...
[A soft rumble of a laugh, delivered into the crook of Clive's neck. He still smells of the oils Verso had washed his hair with the night before, and he breathes the scent in, how it sits upon his skin, mingling with his own aroma. Were sleep a kinder thing to Verso, he might have let his eyes flutter shut and taken a moment to just appreciate how much he loves this knight-dog-fire of a man, but instead he snakes himself free enough to grab his wine and lift it into another toast.]
I'm glad you went with the whole fool-in-love thing.
[This time, he follows the sip he takes with that long-denied (it was like five minutes, Verso, don't be dramatic) kiss, savouring it with the same enthusiasm with which he'd embraced their little bit of theatre. Maybe he's not in the most comfortable position on the floor – and perhaps some of the blocks behind his feet get scattered as he manoeuvres himself into place – but oh well, who cares, the knight has found his lord, and the lord has more favours to give him than the silk still tucked into his shirt.
After a moment:]
It's nice having someone to be a fool with.
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Glasses clink, and Clive finally gets the kiss he was angling for. As expected, it tastes sweeter than the alcohol, and the pleasant fuzziness building in his skull fluffs itself to more fullness, more softness. The world takes on a cottony texture, a warmer glow; that filter pushes up against the back of Clive's eyes, and makes ocean-blue twinkle lighter like aquamarine.
His smile stretches his scar. Even the jagged edges of it seem to take on a more rounded form. ]
I don't recall ever advertising myself as smart. [ Speaking of acting the fool. Clive is happy to float in this foolspace for a little longer, bolstered by wine and his lingering good mood. ] You're the clever one. And you deserve to meet me at my level, every once in a while.
[ More playful than self-deprecating. Another quick peck, and Clive glances sideways at the toy train set lingering next to their tray of food. ]
...If you'd permit me to act a fool for a bit longer, [ he hums, ] may I try to impress you?
[ Okay, he's definitely floating towards inebriation. Usually he's far better at holding his drink, but fatigue and near-death experiences and, honestly, a lack of hydration are all contributing to his current fuzziness. Harmless, in the long run. ]
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It's emblematical of the other Verso, he knows, but not in a way that resonates with him. It's one toy among countless more; he scarcely remembers it beyond an abstracted understanding that he had always loved trains, which must have meant he spent a great deal of time playing with them.
And which now means that he's curious to see what Clive has in mind for them – if they are indeed connected to whatever it is he has in mind. An intrigue made all the more, well, intriguing by how Verso can see the buzz of that honeyed wine working its way through him, brighting his eyes and rosing his cheeks just enough to be noticeable in the dim light.
He lifts himself back up, not wanting to miss a moment, and shoots Clive an affirming finger.]
Always try to impress me with your foolishness, mon feu.
[It's his love language, secondary only to touch.]
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Eventually, he succeeds in creating a closed loop. Not a perfect circle, but an oblong oval that meanders in certain parts. Once that's done, he performs a cursory inspection of the trains available to him, and tests their structural integrity with a few quick rolls against the floor―
―all of this done with complete earnestness, of course. Clive will be Clive.
Once he finishes that, he settles the toy on the track with a flourish. ]
Regardez.
[ The vous-form, formal. Back to theatrics, though it's a little shier this time around; Clive's expression pinches inwards as he summons chroma, jade-green this time instead of crimson, and lets it pool around his fingertips. Benedikta would have his head if she knew he was using her powers for such improper uses, but recalling the shape of her ire makes Clive chuckle under his breath instead of reconsider.
A low inhale to steady himself, and he passes the gust of wind from his hand to the train's little wheels. Green chroma clings to the toy and churns the air under it to send it shooting along the tracks, as if it's been given wings; the room fills with the soft sound of it clattering along. ]
...Voila.
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And while Verso understands why Clive presented it as something foolish – they are grown men watching a toy train circle (oval?) around a track – he doesn't laugh or play up the silliness of it, and his smile is more wistful than anything, lost in a past he's never known.]
Choo-choo.
[He says after a moment in a quieted voice, unable to rejoin Clive in their theatrics from before right away. Over the years, he's encountered Verso's soul a few times, that faceless boy overlooking his destroyed world, confused and unsure and jailed by a Canvas that Verso can only assume he no longer wants to paint. Not with everything that's happened; not with how it's destroying his family. He sits with him now in a way his family doesn't seem to, anymore, his mother focused on her new creations, his father and one sister on his destruction, his other sister overwritten by their mother's chroma.
Summoning forth his own chroma, he lights up the windows and thinks, too, about cold winter nights at the station, waiting for the last train back into Lumiere and watching it as it curled around the mountains, a light in the darkness, a promise of warmth and home and rum and hot chocolate by the fire, a book in his lap, music playing on the gramophone. All things he revisit now, he knows, but this isn't that manor and he is not that Verso. Even if those are his real memories from things he really did in this canvas world.
It's been a moment since he's said anything. I'll probably be a bit, still, before he finds the words. So, instead:]
It appears you're now the one who has misled me, gentil chevalier. You're no fool at all, but a thief, for you have stolen the wind from my lungs.
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Humbling, that. Clive watches as silver lights up the toy as it makes it circular journey on the floor, around and around and around, then gets up to make his way back to the coveted spot by Verso's side, unable not to be near him when his mood shifts to something so wistful. ]
No, [ he murmurs, head shaking. ] I'm still a fool.
[ Because clearly, he's raked tipsy hands along something raw and aching. A misstep, a thoughtless fumble. This manor is full of things that are only half-remembered and absent of content, and it would have been wiser, perhaps, for Clive to leave these things (especially the things in the Other Verso's room) well enough alone.
His palm finds the small of his partner's back, and Clive lets their shoulders brush. The wooden train clatters on, still energized by green-tinged wind. ]
I can make it stop.
[ Quietly, offering Verso the floor to talk about it or not. It's fine, either way: there's still more wine, and Clive isn't going anywhere. His expression slants, apologetic without snuffing the warmth of his eyes, mindful without wanting to make things too heavy. ]
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At Clive's touch, Verso leans into him, still shaking his head over that I'm-still-a-fool correction. He himself is incapable of predicting how he will and won't feel about his other selves at any given moment, and it isn't like he's reacted in any sort of way to anything in this room prior to now. Hell, his general feelings about being in the manor have always veered neutral, detached, like it's almost an ordinary house, albeit an extraordinarily luxurious one. Of course Clive didn't think twice of it. At least as far as Verso is concerned.
So, in a lightly and humorously scolding tone:]
If you're going to stop anything, then stop calling yourself a fool.
[It's a good thing that Verso's fallen silent, though he hasn't the strength to say so. Were he with anyone else, he might have simply pretended that seeing the train come to life wasn't impacting him so deeply instead of listing to those voices inside of him – his voices – telling him to be honest about this.
He watches the train make another lap around the track, then hums in contemplation.]
It's missing something. Think you could add some smoke to the chimney?
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He ignores those voices, and focuses on the one that matters. Verso's. His tacit permission to keep the trick going, and the request that follows.
All Clive can hope is that none of this hurts. (Not too much, anyway.) He tips, and lets the sides of their heads touch. ]
Without scorching it? [ Regarding the smoke. Hm, is a quiet placeholder as he thinks about how best to go about doing this. ] I can try.
[ Still leaning against Verso, Clive lifts his hand and summons the smallest mote of fire he can manage. Slightly bigger than a pea, the little will o' wisp floats to the top of the train's chimney and hovers above it as the train makes its rounds.
Not quite smoking; more a beacon than anything else. But he's not about to risk an actual fire in a mansion that, in another place and another time, has been ravaged by it－ god knows he's given Verso enough burn damage for a lifetime, and just a day prior. ]
Any other requests?
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Nah. It's looking pretty good.
[And he watches for a while in silence, until he notices a shift in the chroma in the room, melancholic and otherworldly. It settles on Verso's shoulders like a chill, and when he looks up from a train he notices the boy standing there watching them. Faceless and gray, dressed in finery, the smoke of Gommage wafting off of him.
Verso's met him a few times over the decades, always presumably by chance. He'll run into him looking over one scene of destruction or another, or else reflecting on a once-loved place or on people who he's starting to forget and the pains they've inflicted upon him that he'll never escape. Clive might have come across him too – Verso doesn't know – but he gestures towards him all the same, a gentle look who's here before he focuses back on the faceless boy.]
Hi.
[This time, the boy doesn't speak. He simply approaches the train, steps slow and unsure, then holds out one of his fingers above the wisp, keeping it in place and following the train as it circles. It takes a moment for Verso to realise what he's doing, but when he notices that Gommage smoke rising from his finger, he lets out a soft laugh.]
Nice one. Thanks.
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