[ She's so careful with him. Like he could break, if she applies too much pressure; like he might flinch back, if someone came too close. For a moment, he wonders how much of 'Cid' she knows, and how much of his life's history has been shared with her, through whispers in the mess or gossip around the Hideaway. A quick visit to Harpocrates would tell her everything she needs to know about "Clive Rosfield": the disgraced eldest son of a duchy no longer under its own control.
He pulls away, only to give himself enough distance to see the expression on Aerith's face. His palm remains where it is, cupped along her jaw. Anyone passing by would think they were moments away from a proper kiss, but Clive isn't thinking about that― or about anyone else, for that matter. ]
―I've experienced being caught in darkness. Thirteen years, with not even a shred of hope to guide me.
[ A small smile, as reassurance that he's fine. The memory doesn't destroy him to speak about. ]
I'm that man no longer. I know how to feel, now. [ With certainty, and with just a healthy amount of guilt. ] And I know that you make me feel happy.
[He's not a delicate man at all, but Aerith treats him almost as if he were crystal. As if one wrong fumble and he might topple from her hands and break upon landing. Maybe it's that she's afraid of breaking him. Neither 'Cid' nor Clive, she wagers, are easily broken, however.
If they were, they wouldn't be here now. Just like she wouldn't be either. A soft appearance, a soft conversation doesn't not indicate a soft resilience. And people are so much more than a singular thing, a singular concept.
As he takes her in, weight in her palms as she supports herself with some combination of hands and the shoulder of his she'd gently taken. She knows that Clive has had a difficult time. That he's in a position he didn't really ask for. That he carries a plethora of weight that a younger prince likely didn't exactly anticipate. But he holds all of this in stride. Maybe because he feels like he has no choice.
Just because she knows the what doesn't mean she's correct in the way she tries to read him. But she has an unfair advantage. People know him. About him. Where if their roles were reversed, he doesn't have that insight.]
It must sound like I'm nagging you. [Aerith admits it a little sheepishly.] I'm not trying to. [If it does.] I'm glad, though. That I make you feel happy. [As she spends some moments more, her emerald gaze fastened upon his.] You... make me feel happy, too. I didn't realise I could feel that way again. You do, though. It means a lot to me. You mean a lot to me.
[In general. What he wants. Where he wants to go. What he wants to do. Who he wants to be. How he wants to be. All of those are so devastatingly important to her.]
[ His thumb traces along the crest of Aerith's cheekbone, then sifts back to bracket a shapely ear. Feeling the shape of her, and feeling the hum of aether she exudes under her skin; something unique, and something he's only felt in the presence of another Dominant, or in the company of a crystal. Aerith is neither of these things, though, which makes Clive wonder if it's his own body that's become strange. Whether by infatuation or by the mystery still to be uncovered about his own identity, he's not quite sure.
More importantly, she tells him that he means something to her, which quickly distracts from his tactile musings. A brief flash of surprise crosses over his features― it shouldn't, at this point, he knows― before it settles into a half-grin, slightly crooked from disuse. ]
You're not nagging, [ first and foremost. Then: ] And if you're not careful...
...you'll give me a big head.
[ "I didn't realise I could feel that way again" seems a hefty confession to place in his hands; he doesn't want to handle it lightly, or brush it aside. So he strokes against her jaw one more time, before pressing another kiss to her temple. Chaste, but affectionate. ]
[He touches and learns, acquaints, and Aerith can feel her nerves heighten. People don't usually do that. Despite Aerith's extremely friendly demeanour and penchant for invading the personal space of others, most aren't usually inclined to provide her with the same in return.
She tries to remember the last time someone did and concludes that it wasn't an ideal situation. Beneath the surface of soft smile and warm eyes, something stirs. Perhaps it's fluster. Perhaps it's just an expected means of self-preservation. If she isn't careful, she'll begin to—
Despite the idea that she has yet to really wipe the dirt from her hands, she shifts then, draws back just enough to get a better look at him, and clasps his hand between both of her own. As she tilts her head, under the guise of determining if his head really is getting bigger (it's not), it's an evasion tactic.]
Hm... [She begins, squinting and looking very, very serious. And then she grins.] I don't think so. Your head looks the same to me. Now, I'm not a professional, but I am very observant. I'd know if you had a big head. You definitely don't.
[ A beat, as he acclimates to this new scrutiny. Clive sits back, realigning his balance and tipping his head to let the sun catch his raven-dark hair, letting the warmth of its light seep into his layers.
Has he done too much? Something close to contrition starts to work its way onto his scarred face, but relinquishes when Aerith delivers her very charming verdict about the size of his head.
An evasion, perhaps, but a very endearing one. He can tell that it's the sort of wall he shouldn't push against yet, so he metaphorically backs off. ]
Thank the Founder. I need less reasons to go to the Infirmary.
[ Playing along, as he breathes a laugh and slides his hand out from between hers. There's still work to be done, and the last thing he wants is for Aerith to feel awkward. ]
Warn me, though, if you start to see signs of inflating.
[He's too observant himself not to notice what she's doing. Even so, he accepts it with grace, doesn't pry or push, and Aerith is, admittedly, relieved. Although she still doesn't like the notion that she feels she has to keep information about herself to herself. Maybe one day that will change. Even if it does, however, what will the repercussions be for just such a thing?
Either way, when he reclaims his hand, Aerith laughs quietly and she turns her attention back to the plants they've both been tending. She motions with one hand.]
Why don't you look at those ones? I'll do the ones on the other side. I don't think you need me to babysit you. You have a good idea on how to work with them.
[Using her hands to help herself up, she moves to the opposite side of the modest bed of herbs before she dips down again.]
And you can tell me if you often find yourself there. The infirmary, I mean. I'm pretty sure I've heard Tarja scolding you once or twice. Maybe something about you being a little reckless?
[ Hand relinquished, he presses a palm to his the open cut of his vest, just between his collarbone. ]
Understood, my lady. [ To her suggestion to finish tending to one side of the garden, while she tackles her own. Still playful, though people who might not know Clive well enough might misinterpret it as sarcasm; he often sounds dry, but only because the quiet murmur of his voice doesn't carry intent as well as he'd like sometimes.
More weeds get carefully pulled out, while some herbs get placed into the bowl for cooking. He can't identify which ones are which, but he trusts Aerith to sort through them for him. ]
―And, well. Often as I try not to bother our healer, I do tend to get myself into trouble often enough. I've found that she gets angrier if I try to hide my wounds from her, so I've given up on trying.
Aerith wears an amused smile. She's inclined to argue that she doesn't fall anywhere near the category of lady. Or at least, maybe not the kind of 'lady' that Clive might have grown up with. Homes of princes and princesses and things like that? Aerith is just the sprinkling of one in the sea of a million people who aren't of bloodlines like that.
Still, he's being cute.
Occasionally she glances over to him, pleased that he separates to the best of his ability. When they're done, she makes a note to show him what is what. He might not need to know it personally, but it wouldn't hurt for him to understand what ends up on his plate occasionally.]
I don't blame her. [Aerith begins.] Hiding your injuries is just going to make a lot of us worry more. To you, they could be inconsequential, but to Tarja and some of the rest of us, it gives cause for concern. [But she's willing to bet Tarja has given him a pretty clear explanation about why he shouldn't be neglecting himself or brushing off whatever he does get.]
[ It doesn't require strenuous effort on Clive's part to be attentive. Genuinely, he's interested in the things that make the natural world around them tick, having been so beholden to crystals and magick from such a young age. It doesn't hurt that he's grown attached to his teacher, though that's the sort of thing that'll require more unpacking on his own time.
Weeds go in one pile, herbs in another. The bowl is getting crowded－ he'll offer to carry it wherever Aerith needs, later. ]
If I went to the infirmary for every bump and bruise, I think I would never leave.
[ He has a rather nasty bruise now, in the shape of the side of a rock that he bumped against when he was chasing coeurls in the Dhalmek desert; he hadn't bothered to tell Tarja, because it seemed too trivial. ]
[Aerith laughs, lifting her head from where she's been plucking weeds. On her hands, she shifts to the last plant waiting for her care and she shakes her head.]
Maybe don't go to her that often. I'm sure she'd like to do something else with her time, as much as I'm sure she doesn't mind seeing you. [Maybe for better reasons, though. It's probably tiresome to see him for injuries.] But hopefully you won't have to endure any stitches anytime soon.
[That said, sometimes even if Clive isn't looking for trouble, trouble finds him.]
How are you doing over there? Feeling confident if I come over and give it the third degree? I won't hold back, you know.
[Not true. To a degree, she just might. Imagining Aerith as anything more than a little gentle is difficult. She's not yielding and she can be firm, but she'd rather not be if she doesn't have to be.]
[ Clive is the trouble, some might say. Flitting left and right, sword in hand, destroying centuries of a well-established world order. A few bumps and scrapes and scars are suitable recompense for the chaos he's caused, and continues to cause.
He doesn't say that, though. He can anticipate the pushback against it, and he doesn't want this to be a matter of self-flagellation, either. ]
You should have seen when I tried to stitch myself together, once. I thought Tarja might kill me herself.
[ He didn't think his work was that shoddy... but alas. A half-chuckle as he remembers the verbal lashing he got, and he pivots to give Aerith more room beside him again if she cares to inspect his progress. He's fairly certain that he's been able to correctly separate the weeds from the herbs, though there's one outlier that may or may not be missorted. ]
I don't know that I'd blame her. Unless you've suddenly decided you'd be more fitting with a needle and thread.
[Aerith raises her eyebrows, a coy smile taking her mouth. As amusing as the imagery is, she just can't see it, and maybe that's because the first time she saw him, he had a sword in hand. She doesn't know much about combat at all, but when she thinks back to that and any other time she's seen him like so, it almost looks like he was made to hold a sword.
Shaking her head at him once more, she followed it up with a quiet mirthful snort.
When he invites her over, Aerith meanders her way back over to him, leaning over to get a good look at what he's done.]
What makes you think it's gonna be an earful? [If she were braver, she'd probably playfully bonk his head like surely Torgal must from time to time. Somehow, she resists the temptation.] Hm... [In her quiet, she examines. Scrutinises. Ruminates. As if she's considering just how analytical she should be.]
I don't think this looks bad at all, actually. Considering I'm pretty sure you don't spend a lot of time with plants. Of course, if you come out here more often, you could get even better.
[ Hardly good for anything besides holding a sword... and sorting through herbs, apparently! Clive waits for Aerith's verdict with the patience of a dog being told to heel before its bowl of food is brought to it, and once it's delivered, settles into his contentment like the same dog now happily sticking its nose in its food.
She really is so sweet. There are precious few who manage to be so playful with him― Gav, certainly, and Mid, when she's around. It makes him feel fifteen again, a boy who grew up slightly awkward around the raucous humor of soldiers in barracks.
Theatrically, he places his palm over his heart. ]
I thank my lady for her generosity in her assessment.
[ Perfectly princely. ]
And eventually, I should hope that you whip me into shape enough that I might change my moniker from 'Cid the Outlaw' to 'Cid the Plant-tamer'.
[Watching him, pleased that he's willing to humour her, Aerith grins from ear to ear. There he goes again. That 'my lady.' It's so perfectly him. It really reminds her of how different their ageing up must have been. Maybe. Maybe not, considering it sure seems like they might feel similarly on some certain things.
One day, she'll ask him for more details. When she's brave enough to do so.
Dipping down next to him again, she reaches for the bowl they've successfully filled with their garden plunder. Tipping her head, she's still sporting that amused expression, like she's trying to hold back any additional laughter that could potentially leak through. As she speaks, she's sorting through what they've picked, trying to organise it so when it goes to the mess, it's a little easier to go through.]
I thought it was other people who gave you the nickname and you were just leaning into it. [Pausing a moment, deliberately removing some extra dirt from roots, she scoots to better face Clive, sits up a little more and without much warning at all, her hands lift with the intention to press her fingertips right over his cheeks in an effort to playfully mark him with some of the 'fruits' of their proverbial labour.] If you wanna come across as a plant-tamer, then we need to make you look like a plant-tamer, no?
[ More doglike inclinations: he tilts into that touch, letting fingertips smear dirt along his skin. He doesn't mind wearing what he's done, and earth is far preferable than the acrid splashback of blood. ]
Not exactly. I assumed the moniker myself.
[ No one asked him to― he'd wanted to. Everything around him is Cid's legacy, not his own. He's just borrowed it, kept it going. All of this was Cid's idea, and Clive would rather it be attributed to the lionhearted man who fought on and on for the right for broken things to be broken instead of discarded.
[That too, sounds like Clive. Cid was formative to Clive. As he was to many. Isn't that kind of why they're all here now? That man has saved so many people. Even under Clive's leadership, it keeps happening. And it's all begun with a rather cheeky man who still carries influence even after his noble sacrifice.
Aerith can only smile softly at the notion as she admires Clive in all of his gardening glory. Cid the Outlaw, huh. Except he only looks like Clive to her now.
When he preens, or what she decides to interpret as preening, she's grinning all over again.]
You look... very dirty. [She replies with a laugh, but just as quickly she follows it up by rubbing the same hands across her face.] What do you think? Now, we match.
[In suffering and joys alike, Aerith likes the idea of matching. She isn't sure she'd like to picture it in any other way.]
Well, that's unfair. [ His head angles to the side, as Clive takes in the sight of her. Mud-streaked, and still impossibly lovely. ] You wear it better than I do, I think.
[ For all that they've just spoken about monikers, he, too, feels like Just Clive. The sort of man he might have been if he hadn't been a prince, if he hadn't been a Dominant, if he hadn't been anything. Just flesh and blood and sentiment, which he has in spades.
His gaze warms; affection smooths across his angles, and makes him look softer for it. Younger. Boyish, even. ]
I expect the others will be surprised if they saw us in this state. They might think we fought.
[Isn't he? Maybe... he's not? It's just dirt. How can anyone wear it well? It occurs to her that as she's thinking about it, that familiar tint of colour is touching her again. Whether he's serious or not, Aerith's grin softens into a warm, sincere, and rather girlish smile.
She casts a look around just in case she sees any immediate prying eyes. Prying ears. Would it really matter if anyone saw the two of them together? Well. Considering Aerith's behaviour and how she carries herself, maybe they'd come to expect that of her. It's possible that Clive playing along would be more of an unexpected outcome.
Aerith likes it when he plays along, though. She hopes he'll do it more. Gesturing to the bowl at her side, she dramatically clears her throat.]
I dunno. This makes it look pretty obvious, right? [But then she leans forward onto her palms as she studies him, appreciates the way his features have shifted. He's very handsome, isn't he. Dirt or no dirt, doesn't matter.] But I can pretend that we were fighting, if you want. I'm pretty good at pretending. I can say it was one-sided and you let me win.
[ He is, and he isn't. Teasing, that is. But he's not sure how well it'd go if he spoke that reality into existence, if he said something as blunt as no, I really do think you're quite stunning, and so―
―he keeps it to himself for now, and thanks Aerith internally for moving along. Even if she smiles at him in a way that makes his pulse flutter, and his blood feel just a bit hotter under his skin. It's a strange, pleasant thing to be sure that his presence is welcome, and to have it telegraphed with such vibrant honesty.
Already, he's forgotten that he literally has dirt on his face. Preoccupied with the gentle presence next to him, and his inclination to help her in whatever way he can. ]
No one would believe that I 'let' you.
[ Slightly playful, but mostly honest. Straightening, he reaches for the bowl with the sort of gentle authority that says that he'll carry it for her. ]
If we ever fought, I doubt I could win. [ Verbally, that is. He'd never fight her physically; would never lift a finger to harm her. ]
What are you talking about—everyone would believe that you let me.
[Her smile blooms all over again, not unlike the flowers she's been growing in the hideaway. When he reaches for the bowl she's neatly organised, her head tilts.]
You don't have to do that, you know. I could do it.
[She usually does, but it's a very nice and refreshing change of pace. Aerith suspects that he'll offer to take it anyway and that little flutter at the mere theoretical comes right back up, tempting her to grin in that slightly flustered way she sometimes does.
Very idly, Aerith throws some rather unimpressive, halfhearted punches in the air. It's evident close-quarters-combat is not at all her area of expertise.]
As fortune would have it, I can't envision a moment in which I'd ever want to fight with you. I like it much more when we smile at each other. Play fighting, though. I could do play fighting. It'd look really silly, though. I don't really know how to fight at all.
I don't, [ about the bowl, ] but you'd not deny me the pleasure.
[ Twin helpfulness, dancing their careful dance. If Clive is imagining the slight dusting of red on Aerith's cheeks, well― he likes where his imagination is going, for once. A smile, and he balances the bowl in one hand while he thumbs off a bit of that dirt on her face. Not enough that it ruins the matching, mind.
The formless punching is enough to elicit a full-throated laugh, as he starts to move away from the gardens and towards the kitchens. ]
It's my hope that you'll never have to learn. [ How to fight, obviously. An idealistic way to think― even without magick or aether or crystals, humans will be humans― but still. He thinks he can't be faulted for wishing. ] But if ever we run into a situation where we need to convince others of your fierceness, I'll gladly play my part.
Aerith trails after her, darkening just a shade more when he fixes—adjusts—the dirt marking her. They really do probably look like they got into a scuffle. But if he doesn't mind, she doesn't either. Inevitably, people may talk, but it wouldn't be the first time she was a conversation topic. It probably, whether she wants it or not, won't be the last time.
Rubbing her hands together and trying to remove some of the dirt she's acquired from working (and playing alike) in the gardens, she stays near his side.]
It'd be nice if none of us had to rely on fighting to survive. [Aerith begins and after a moment, she looks almost apologetic, though for whom is anyone's guess.] Life, in general, is precious. I don't necessarily always understand or agree with why swords have to be taken up to begin with. Or why magic has to be used to conquer instead of purely just to protect.
[She shakes her head slowly.] I know that's not the way of the world. But in my world, in my ideal world, no one would have to do that. One day, maybe no one will. [And yet that seems so against human nature.]
[ If the others do talk, it'll likely be a lot of young men very angry at Clive for hogging Aerith's attention, he's sure. He'll probably be dragged towards the bar at some point and surrounded by tankards of ale, accosted by Cursebreakers and civilians alone about what he talks about with her, what makes Aerith smile.
Oh well. That's for future Clive to contend with. A gaggle of children pass by them on their way to their destination, and he smiles as they giggle and chirp Cid's gotten all dirty with Aerith! as they scatter. ]
...When we get rid of the crystals, and we get rid of magick, my hope is that we can get closer to the world you're envisioning. All of us made equal, with the same choices and opportunities to live and thrive.
[ No Bearers, no Branded, no arbitrary guidelines used to punish arbitrary groups of people. An ideal, but a goal nevertheless. ]
[Aerith's green gaze passes over the children and their laughter is infectious. She can't resist laughing either. Maybe she should set aside some time to play with them, too. A bunch of small hands in the garden sounds like it would be nice. If they can grow with peace in their hearts, perhaps their future can be a far brighter one. It's only when they're so far ahead of her view that she returns her attention onto Clive.
...When we get rid of the crystals, and we get rid of magick...
Yes. Maybe... that's all true. Maybe the crystals and magick is all to blame for this. But what does that mean for someone like her? Perhaps nothing good and maybe that part doesn't matter. Idly, she finds herself eyeing one of her hands. For the sliver of a moment, her expression shifts. Serious. A little more sombre. But it's only a beat of time, though it feels so much longer for her. The beat passes, no greater than the blink of an eye, and Aerith is back to... Aerith.]
All of us made equal. With the same choices and opportunities to live and thrive. [Her features soften.] What a beautiful world that could be.
[At his question, she shakes her head.] No. Of course not. I just wish you didn't have to. I wish no one here had to. I wish Cid never had to. People wouldn't have had to sacrifice themselves. Families wouldn't be split. Children wouldn't be without their parents. [Eyeing him thoughtfully, she continues.] You're fighting to make the world a better place, Clive. Seeing you fight so hard, it makes me want to do the same thing.
[ He watches, and for a moment, the world seems to dilate around Aerith; for a heartbeat, she seems miles away, sequestered in a place that seems impossible to reach.
There and gone again. She repeats his words back at him, steady and sure, and her smile brightens the green of her eyes. A trick of the light? It's hard for Clive to tell, even when he's so close to her in physical distance, just within arm's reach.
The grief of someone who lost much because of the world, he tries to reason. There's something under Aerith's skin that sings of melancholy, and maybe it's because of it that she's so gentle, that she holds her wishes like sunlight in her palms. ]
...I fight, but I also kill. I wouldn't wish that on you.
[ Bloodstained hands, dirtied by sin. He flexes the one that isn't holding the bowl, feeling his fingers furl and unfurl. ]
You do more than enough, just being alive. Seeing all of this through to the end. I'd dare not ask more.
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He pulls away, only to give himself enough distance to see the expression on Aerith's face. His palm remains where it is, cupped along her jaw. Anyone passing by would think they were moments away from a proper kiss, but Clive isn't thinking about that― or about anyone else, for that matter. ]
―I've experienced being caught in darkness. Thirteen years, with not even a shred of hope to guide me.
[ A small smile, as reassurance that he's fine. The memory doesn't destroy him to speak about. ]
I'm that man no longer. I know how to feel, now. [ With certainty, and with just a healthy amount of guilt. ] And I know that you make me feel happy.
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If they were, they wouldn't be here now. Just like she wouldn't be either. A soft appearance, a soft conversation doesn't not indicate a soft resilience. And people are so much more than a singular thing, a singular concept.
As he takes her in, weight in her palms as she supports herself with some combination of hands and the shoulder of his she'd gently taken. She knows that Clive has had a difficult time. That he's in a position he didn't really ask for. That he carries a plethora of weight that a younger prince likely didn't exactly anticipate. But he holds all of this in stride. Maybe because he feels like he has no choice.
Just because she knows the what doesn't mean she's correct in the way she tries to read him. But she has an unfair advantage. People know him. About him. Where if their roles were reversed, he doesn't have that insight.]
It must sound like I'm nagging you. [Aerith admits it a little sheepishly.] I'm not trying to. [If it does.] I'm glad, though. That I make you feel happy. [As she spends some moments more, her emerald gaze fastened upon his.] You... make me feel happy, too. I didn't realise I could feel that way again. You do, though. It means a lot to me. You mean a lot to me.
[In general. What he wants. Where he wants to go. What he wants to do. Who he wants to be. How he wants to be. All of those are so devastatingly important to her.]
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More importantly, she tells him that he means something to her, which quickly distracts from his tactile musings. A brief flash of surprise crosses over his features― it shouldn't, at this point, he knows― before it settles into a half-grin, slightly crooked from disuse. ]
You're not nagging, [ first and foremost. Then: ] And if you're not careful...
...you'll give me a big head.
[ "I didn't realise I could feel that way again" seems a hefty confession to place in his hands; he doesn't want to handle it lightly, or brush it aside. So he strokes against her jaw one more time, before pressing another kiss to her temple. Chaste, but affectionate. ]
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She tries to remember the last time someone did and concludes that it wasn't an ideal situation. Beneath the surface of soft smile and warm eyes, something stirs. Perhaps it's fluster. Perhaps it's just an expected means of self-preservation. If she isn't careful, she'll begin to—
Despite the idea that she has yet to really wipe the dirt from her hands, she shifts then, draws back just enough to get a better look at him, and clasps his hand between both of her own. As she tilts her head, under the guise of determining if his head really is getting bigger (it's not), it's an evasion tactic.]
Hm... [She begins, squinting and looking very, very serious. And then she grins.] I don't think so. Your head looks the same to me. Now, I'm not a professional, but I am very observant. I'd know if you had a big head. You definitely don't.
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Has he done too much? Something close to contrition starts to work its way onto his scarred face, but relinquishes when Aerith delivers her very charming verdict about the size of his head.
An evasion, perhaps, but a very endearing one. He can tell that it's the sort of wall he shouldn't push against yet, so he metaphorically backs off. ]
Thank the Founder. I need less reasons to go to the Infirmary.
[ Playing along, as he breathes a laugh and slides his hand out from between hers. There's still work to be done, and the last thing he wants is for Aerith to feel awkward. ]
Warn me, though, if you start to see signs of inflating.
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Either way, when he reclaims his hand, Aerith laughs quietly and she turns her attention back to the plants they've both been tending. She motions with one hand.]
Why don't you look at those ones? I'll do the ones on the other side. I don't think you need me to babysit you. You have a good idea on how to work with them.
[Using her hands to help herself up, she moves to the opposite side of the modest bed of herbs before she dips down again.]
And you can tell me if you often find yourself there. The infirmary, I mean. I'm pretty sure I've heard Tarja scolding you once or twice. Maybe something about you being a little reckless?
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Understood, my lady. [ To her suggestion to finish tending to one side of the garden, while she tackles her own. Still playful, though people who might not know Clive well enough might misinterpret it as sarcasm; he often sounds dry, but only because the quiet murmur of his voice doesn't carry intent as well as he'd like sometimes.
More weeds get carefully pulled out, while some herbs get placed into the bowl for cooking. He can't identify which ones are which, but he trusts Aerith to sort through them for him. ]
―And, well. Often as I try not to bother our healer, I do tend to get myself into trouble often enough. I've found that she gets angrier if I try to hide my wounds from her, so I've given up on trying.
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Aerith wears an amused smile. She's inclined to argue that she doesn't fall anywhere near the category of lady. Or at least, maybe not the kind of 'lady' that Clive might have grown up with. Homes of princes and princesses and things like that? Aerith is just the sprinkling of one in the sea of a million people who aren't of bloodlines like that.
Still, he's being cute.
Occasionally she glances over to him, pleased that he separates to the best of his ability. When they're done, she makes a note to show him what is what. He might not need to know it personally, but it wouldn't hurt for him to understand what ends up on his plate occasionally.]
I don't blame her. [Aerith begins.] Hiding your injuries is just going to make a lot of us worry more. To you, they could be inconsequential, but to Tarja and some of the rest of us, it gives cause for concern. [But she's willing to bet Tarja has given him a pretty clear explanation about why he shouldn't be neglecting himself or brushing off whatever he does get.]
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Weeds go in one pile, herbs in another. The bowl is getting crowded－ he'll offer to carry it wherever Aerith needs, later. ]
If I went to the infirmary for every bump and bruise, I think I would never leave.
[ He has a rather nasty bruise now, in the shape of the side of a rock that he bumped against when he was chasing coeurls in the Dhalmek desert; he hadn't bothered to tell Tarja, because it seemed too trivial. ]
I'll go to her if I need anything sewed shut.
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Maybe don't go to her that often. I'm sure she'd like to do something else with her time, as much as I'm sure she doesn't mind seeing you. [Maybe for better reasons, though. It's probably tiresome to see him for injuries.] But hopefully you won't have to endure any stitches anytime soon.
[That said, sometimes even if Clive isn't looking for trouble, trouble finds him.]
How are you doing over there? Feeling confident if I come over and give it the third degree? I won't hold back, you know.
[Not true. To a degree, she just might. Imagining Aerith as anything more than a little gentle is difficult. She's not yielding and she can be firm, but she'd rather not be if she doesn't have to be.]
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He doesn't say that, though. He can anticipate the pushback against it, and he doesn't want this to be a matter of self-flagellation, either. ]
You should have seen when I tried to stitch myself together, once. I thought Tarja might kill me herself.
[ He didn't think his work was that shoddy... but alas. A half-chuckle as he remembers the verbal lashing he got, and he pivots to give Aerith more room beside him again if she cares to inspect his progress. He's fairly certain that he's been able to correctly separate the weeds from the herbs, though there's one outlier that may or may not be missorted. ]
Speaking of. Alright, come give me your earful.
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[Aerith raises her eyebrows, a coy smile taking her mouth. As amusing as the imagery is, she just can't see it, and maybe that's because the first time she saw him, he had a sword in hand. She doesn't know much about combat at all, but when she thinks back to that and any other time she's seen him like so, it almost looks like he was made to hold a sword.
Shaking her head at him once more, she followed it up with a quiet mirthful snort.
When he invites her over, Aerith meanders her way back over to him, leaning over to get a good look at what he's done.]
What makes you think it's gonna be an earful? [If she were braver, she'd probably playfully bonk his head like surely Torgal must from time to time. Somehow, she resists the temptation.] Hm... [In her quiet, she examines. Scrutinises. Ruminates. As if she's considering just how analytical she should be.]
I don't think this looks bad at all, actually. Considering I'm pretty sure you don't spend a lot of time with plants. Of course, if you come out here more often, you could get even better.
[Wink, wink. Nudge, nudge. She's so smooth.]
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She really is so sweet. There are precious few who manage to be so playful with him― Gav, certainly, and Mid, when she's around. It makes him feel fifteen again, a boy who grew up slightly awkward around the raucous humor of soldiers in barracks.
Theatrically, he places his palm over his heart. ]
I thank my lady for her generosity in her assessment.
[ Perfectly princely. ]
And eventually, I should hope that you whip me into shape enough that I might change my moniker from 'Cid the Outlaw' to 'Cid the Plant-tamer'.
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One day, she'll ask him for more details. When she's brave enough to do so.
Dipping down next to him again, she reaches for the bowl they've successfully filled with their garden plunder. Tipping her head, she's still sporting that amused expression, like she's trying to hold back any additional laughter that could potentially leak through. As she speaks, she's sorting through what they've picked, trying to organise it so when it goes to the mess, it's a little easier to go through.]
I thought it was other people who gave you the nickname and you were just leaning into it. [Pausing a moment, deliberately removing some extra dirt from roots, she scoots to better face Clive, sits up a little more and without much warning at all, her hands lift with the intention to press her fingertips right over his cheeks in an effort to playfully mark him with some of the 'fruits' of their proverbial labour.] If you wanna come across as a plant-tamer, then we need to make you look like a plant-tamer, no?
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Not exactly. I assumed the moniker myself.
[ No one asked him to― he'd wanted to. Everything around him is Cid's legacy, not his own. He's just borrowed it, kept it going. All of this was Cid's idea, and Clive would rather it be attributed to the lionhearted man who fought on and on for the right for broken things to be broken instead of discarded.
Clive smiles, and tips his head back. ]
So? How do I look?
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Aerith can only smile softly at the notion as she admires Clive in all of his gardening glory. Cid the Outlaw, huh. Except he only looks like Clive to her now.
When he preens, or what she decides to interpret as preening, she's grinning all over again.]
You look... very dirty. [She replies with a laugh, but just as quickly she follows it up by rubbing the same hands across her face.] What do you think? Now, we match.
[In suffering and joys alike, Aerith likes the idea of matching. She isn't sure she'd like to picture it in any other way.]
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Well, that's unfair. [ His head angles to the side, as Clive takes in the sight of her. Mud-streaked, and still impossibly lovely. ] You wear it better than I do, I think.
[ For all that they've just spoken about monikers, he, too, feels like Just Clive. The sort of man he might have been if he hadn't been a prince, if he hadn't been a Dominant, if he hadn't been anything. Just flesh and blood and sentiment, which he has in spades.
His gaze warms; affection smooths across his angles, and makes him look softer for it. Younger. Boyish, even. ]
I expect the others will be surprised if they saw us in this state. They might think we fought.
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[Isn't he? Maybe... he's not? It's just dirt. How can anyone wear it well? It occurs to her that as she's thinking about it, that familiar tint of colour is touching her again. Whether he's serious or not, Aerith's grin softens into a warm, sincere, and rather girlish smile.
She casts a look around just in case she sees any immediate prying eyes. Prying ears. Would it really matter if anyone saw the two of them together? Well. Considering Aerith's behaviour and how she carries herself, maybe they'd come to expect that of her. It's possible that Clive playing along would be more of an unexpected outcome.
Aerith likes it when he plays along, though. She hopes he'll do it more. Gesturing to the bowl at her side, she dramatically clears her throat.]
I dunno. This makes it look pretty obvious, right? [But then she leans forward onto her palms as she studies him, appreciates the way his features have shifted. He's very handsome, isn't he. Dirt or no dirt, doesn't matter.] But I can pretend that we were fighting, if you want. I'm pretty good at pretending. I can say it was one-sided and you let me win.
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―he keeps it to himself for now, and thanks Aerith internally for moving along. Even if she smiles at him in a way that makes his pulse flutter, and his blood feel just a bit hotter under his skin. It's a strange, pleasant thing to be sure that his presence is welcome, and to have it telegraphed with such vibrant honesty.
Already, he's forgotten that he literally has dirt on his face. Preoccupied with the gentle presence next to him, and his inclination to help her in whatever way he can. ]
No one would believe that I 'let' you.
[ Slightly playful, but mostly honest. Straightening, he reaches for the bowl with the sort of gentle authority that says that he'll carry it for her. ]
If we ever fought, I doubt I could win. [ Verbally, that is. He'd never fight her physically; would never lift a finger to harm her. ]
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[Her smile blooms all over again, not unlike the flowers she's been growing in the hideaway. When he reaches for the bowl she's neatly organised, her head tilts.]
You don't have to do that, you know. I could do it.
[She usually does, but it's a very nice and refreshing change of pace. Aerith suspects that he'll offer to take it anyway and that little flutter at the mere theoretical comes right back up, tempting her to grin in that slightly flustered way she sometimes does.
Very idly, Aerith throws some rather unimpressive, halfhearted punches in the air. It's evident close-quarters-combat is not at all her area of expertise.]
As fortune would have it, I can't envision a moment in which I'd ever want to fight with you. I like it much more when we smile at each other. Play fighting, though. I could do play fighting. It'd look really silly, though. I don't really know how to fight at all.
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[ Twin helpfulness, dancing their careful dance. If Clive is imagining the slight dusting of red on Aerith's cheeks, well― he likes where his imagination is going, for once. A smile, and he balances the bowl in one hand while he thumbs off a bit of that dirt on her face. Not enough that it ruins the matching, mind.
The formless punching is enough to elicit a full-throated laugh, as he starts to move away from the gardens and towards the kitchens. ]
It's my hope that you'll never have to learn. [ How to fight, obviously. An idealistic way to think― even without magick or aether or crystals, humans will be humans― but still. He thinks he can't be faulted for wishing. ] But if ever we run into a situation where we need to convince others of your fierceness, I'll gladly play my part.
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Aerith trails after her, darkening just a shade more when he fixes—adjusts—the dirt marking her. They really do probably look like they got into a scuffle. But if he doesn't mind, she doesn't either. Inevitably, people may talk, but it wouldn't be the first time she was a conversation topic. It probably, whether she wants it or not, won't be the last time.
Rubbing her hands together and trying to remove some of the dirt she's acquired from working (and playing alike) in the gardens, she stays near his side.]
It'd be nice if none of us had to rely on fighting to survive. [Aerith begins and after a moment, she looks almost apologetic, though for whom is anyone's guess.] Life, in general, is precious. I don't necessarily always understand or agree with why swords have to be taken up to begin with. Or why magic has to be used to conquer instead of purely just to protect.
[She shakes her head slowly.] I know that's not the way of the world. But in my world, in my ideal world, no one would have to do that. One day, maybe no one will. [And yet that seems so against human nature.]
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Oh well. That's for future Clive to contend with. A gaggle of children pass by them on their way to their destination, and he smiles as they giggle and chirp Cid's gotten all dirty with Aerith! as they scatter. ]
...When we get rid of the crystals, and we get rid of magick, my hope is that we can get closer to the world you're envisioning. All of us made equal, with the same choices and opportunities to live and thrive.
[ No Bearers, no Branded, no arbitrary guidelines used to punish arbitrary groups of people. An ideal, but a goal nevertheless. ]
Does it bother you, that I fight?
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...When we get rid of the crystals, and we get rid of magick...
Yes. Maybe... that's all true. Maybe the crystals and magick is all to blame for this. But what does that mean for someone like her? Perhaps nothing good and maybe that part doesn't matter. Idly, she finds herself eyeing one of her hands. For the sliver of a moment, her expression shifts. Serious. A little more sombre. But it's only a beat of time, though it feels so much longer for her. The beat passes, no greater than the blink of an eye, and Aerith is back to... Aerith.]
All of us made equal. With the same choices and opportunities to live and thrive. [Her features soften.] What a beautiful world that could be.
[At his question, she shakes her head.] No. Of course not. I just wish you didn't have to. I wish no one here had to. I wish Cid never had to. People wouldn't have had to sacrifice themselves. Families wouldn't be split. Children wouldn't be without their parents. [Eyeing him thoughtfully, she continues.] You're fighting to make the world a better place, Clive. Seeing you fight so hard, it makes me want to do the same thing.
[In her own way.]
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There and gone again. She repeats his words back at him, steady and sure, and her smile brightens the green of her eyes. A trick of the light? It's hard for Clive to tell, even when he's so close to her in physical distance, just within arm's reach.
The grief of someone who lost much because of the world, he tries to reason. There's something under Aerith's skin that sings of melancholy, and maybe it's because of it that she's so gentle, that she holds her wishes like sunlight in her palms. ]
...I fight, but I also kill. I wouldn't wish that on you.
[ Bloodstained hands, dirtied by sin. He flexes the one that isn't holding the bowl, feeling his fingers furl and unfurl. ]
You do more than enough, just being alive. Seeing all of this through to the end. I'd dare not ask more.
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