[ The kiss is brief, but sweet. Clive smiles into it, but breaks the contact so he can press something else to her lips: his fingers, index and middle, for her to take into her mouth and wet before he teases her. ]
Fucking you to your peak, [ he murmurs. ] Then fucking you through it.
[ Unrelenting, until her perfect composure breaks. He thinks she'd make a beautiful mess, puddled under him with all that hair pooling around her like a veil. He'd relish putting her back together, cleaning her with lips and tongue, making her come again shortly after with his mouth.
The thought of it makes his cock twitch; he's crazy about her. ] You'd come as many times as you could bear to.
[Without breaking eye contact, he takes his fingers between her lips, sucking, before lavishing them with her tongue. If he's going to talk about fucking her, she'll remind him how much she enjoys blowing him. They leave her mouth with a quiet pop, wet.]
I want to know what it feels like to have you buried to the hilt inside me. You're so big. [She's not fluffing his ego at all with that. It's a fact.] I've always wondered how deep you'll be able to go...
[It only got worse once she saw his cock with her own eyes.]
[ The sight of her with his fingers in his mouth is electric. It wears away at whatever composure Clive has left, and leaves him aching for more of anything that Jill can give him― or any part of her that she's willing to let him have.
So he doesn't hesitate. Wet fingers steal back between parted thighs, and he slides them against her waiting cunt, tracing over her with slow, indulgent slicks. Just the feel of her is enough to make him see stars, but it's her heat that really gets him going once he pushes those fingers inwards, draws a soft, choked sound out of him from the back of his throat. ]
As deep as you'd let me. ―Founder, you're so tight.
[His touch makes her sigh, content and comfortable. One hand rests at the back of his neck while the other cards through his hair, the look on her face nothing short of adoring. Her hips lift when he presses into her, accommodating, wanting.]
How do I ever let you leave my side?
[Duty before love, is how. But here she can be greedy and selfish and not feel bad for it.]
[ He returns the look, reciprocally lovestruck. As much as he knows why he didn't have it in himself to say I love you before, he thinks he might have said it sooner, and have spared them both the waiting.
But he won't overthink it. Not today. And, in turn, he doesn't want Jill to think of him leaving, so: ]
Something you needn't worry about. [ Fingers pressed deep in her, he circles her clit with a thumb in teasing warning: concentrate. ] Be with me now, Jill. Right here.
[ A wolfish half-smile, and he kisses the corner of her mouth. ]
[She's here. That smile really does do as much for her as his touch, though the latter is what makes her shudder with pleasure. Really, she could look at him all day and never grow bored.]
I've never liked it when other women notice you. [Most towns and cities, even when he was branded, had heads turning to look at him, gazes lingering a moment too long.] But now, I can slip into your arms and kiss you. Claim my territory before hungry eyes.
[ Genuinely: ] Was I noticed? [ He'd gotten so numb to being gawked at that it truly no longer registers. A force of habit, from thirteen years of being Less Than; you learn to phase out curious looks to protect yourself from unkind attention.
It's not even a conscious defense mechanism, at this point. So he doesn't think on it, and laughs under his breath. ]
It never registered. I was too busy looking at you, I think. [ Humming, as he makes more friction with his fingers, testing if Jill will be fine with the slow, steady rhythm he starts to build on. ] But, by all means. Stake your claim― have me as you will, and I'll happily flaunt it.
[Bless him. Jill laughs along with him, fingers trailing over his cheek.]
Everyone notices you. You're often the tallest man in the room, if not the one with the broadest of shoulders.
[And the sluttiest of waists.]
It feels good to have the freedom to love you openly, Clive.
[Fuck him openly? Not so much. One day, she tells herself, she'll either build solid walls here or they'll live in a place that offers a little more privacy. It doesn't stop her from moaning quietly, giving a roll of her hips to meet his fingers.]
[ She moans for him, and the sound is like starlight, shimmering gently over his skin. More intoxicating than aetherflood, and gentler, besides. He tries to find the spot that will make her shake again, exploring with more purpose as he watches for her reaction with open fondness. ]
I could say the same about you. You could have anyone you wanted, and yet you want me.
[ His fingers crook inside of her, and spread just a sliver. ]
...Do you recall when we had to pose as lady and Branded? [ Okay, maybe it's a bit mean to be asking her questions when he's two-fingers deep in her, but still. ] I didn't relish being your servant, but there was a thrill in being yours.
[Anyone she wanted? Jill huffs, amused by the thought, stroking his cheek adoringly.]
I've only ever wanted you, Clive. And how fortunate I've been...
[The spread of his fingers, the slight stretch, makes her press her teeth into her bottom lip as she hums, approving. She's wet and getting wetter, though oftentimes a kiss is merely all it takes. He has no idea of the true power he has over her.]
I always--hated that. That one mark made the world see you as less than the rest, when you're the best there is. I much prefer this. My lover and my prince.
[The life of the duchy is far, far behind them in the sense of titles, but a girl can still use it as an endearment.]
[ She's taking him so well, and the thought of being inside of her soon makes blood rush straight to his cock. Still, he manages not to become completely incoherent, and tests to see if she's ready to take a third digit next to the two already-slick fingers working her.
Prince makes him lower his gaze for a moment－ he hasn't been one in ages, not even as a child－ but in Jill's voice, it sounds affectionate instead of taunting. ]
It doesn't matter, how the rest see me. As long as you do.
[ He has reclaimed himself, and put himself in Jill's hands. That's all that will ever matter to him. ]
My love, and my lady. [ He turns his face towards her palm, and kisses along her lifeline. ] How ready do you feel for me?
[Three fingers is more than she's used to, but he's worked her so well that her body accommodates him with little protest. Jill breathes out with a smile, enjoying the pressure, the tension. She can feel her heart beat speed up. Three fingers, then him. She's far more excited than she is intimidated.]
Like I might pull your hair out if you keep me waiting a moment more.
[A playful tease--he's a gentleman, making sure nothing will hurt. Her protector in all things, even from himself.]
[ Please, Jill, don't make him laugh when he's trying to be sexy (?). He has to stop his hand from doing something involuntary and painful where his fingers are hilted inside of her, and he raises a brow in mock-chiding. ]
You'd love me less if I were bald, [ he says, to the tune of "admit it, you would". Equally as playful, even as he takes care to make Jill ride out the last of his prep, because the last thing he wants is for any part of this ordeal to be uncomfortable for her. This is, ostensibly, his real first time being in bed with someone he's proclaimed his love to, and he won't ruin it due to impatience. ]
[Oh, but she loves his laughter. She's not sure if it's typical to laugh in bed as much as they do, whether it now be fucking or simply touching and talking, but she does know it feels good.]
Clive.
[An attempt to sound stern is lost because laughing jostles her just enough to create friction, and she moans. Or groans.]
Certainly, we could find you a wig...
[Lord Elwin didn't live long enough to be able to tell if he would bald at any point. Hmm.]
[ Karma would have made Elwin go bald............ which is obviously not a thing that Clive thinks, because he's still of the opinion that his father was great (someone help Clive's sense of self-respect, tbh). Clive is also not thinking about Elwin because he's currently very busy trying to make Jill feel good, which is kind of a crapshoot at this point.
The upside is that no one makes him smile as much as Jill does. He takes the time to lean over and kiss her stomach, grinning against her skin. ]
Alright, alright, you've convinced me.
[ Fingers pull out, and travel down to his eager cock. He strokes himself once in anticipation, breathing hotly against Jill's navel. ] No more waiting.
[One day she'll get used to the tickle of his beard on her softer areas. Today is not this day. Jill squirms, laughing still, even as she then eyes him hungrily. She never would have thought she could look upon a man bent over her, stroking himself, and feel so much desire.]
[ Home does something to him that makes his cock, already slick with pre, twitch even more in interest. Clive feels stupid with it, lust and love and everything else that he can't possibly start to list, because Jill is well and truly his everything.
He rocks into the cradle of her legs, parting them just another inch to let him slide closer to her, hips bracketed by her thighs. He slots himself against her, slicking his arousal over her wetness with a low, shuddering sigh, and resists the urge to shove forward and claim her like some sort of untamed animal.
Instead, the initial push is slow. Careful, but with intent. He concentrates on how she feels, hot and tight and perfect, and tries not to get overwhelmed too quickly; he would actually die if he came prematurely tonight.
On the tail end of a moan, he ventures: ] Alright?
[Where does she look? That handsome face? Where their bodies join? Jill feels dizzy with desire and excitement and when he presses oh so slowly into her she moans louder than she means to. Hot, hard, and so perfect. He's meant to be inside her.
Even if there's an adjustment--she's glad he's been careful with her, because even horny out of her mind, he's bigger than she is in every way.]
... alright. [It takes her a moment to remember to speak, to breathe.] Slowly, Clive.
[Not that he'll do anything but. A reminder for herself, too. Her hips give a small, experimental roll, and that too has her biting back a moan.]
[ Slowly. Clive can do slowly. He's been waiting for years to do this, and he can wait a few seconds more, though they feel agonizing for how much he wants Jill, how much he wants to be in the deepest part of her, connected and whole.
His eyes flick down to where they meet, and he breathes a hiss through his teeth at the sight of it. ]
Fuck. [ A low murmur, mostly to himself. ] God, you're perfect.
[ He's overwhelmed, and he hasn't even started moving. Nudging another sliver further, he nuzzles against Jill's forehead and leaves a light kiss along her lips, making sure that he keeps her grounded in his affection. ] I love you, Jill.
[She pulls him down for another kiss, a deeper one, and slides a hand down his side. At his hip, she pants her palm, fingers pressing into his skin. Encouraging to move a little, with her, as she gives a slow rock of her hips. Inviting him in deeper.]
[ He sways to the rhythm of that encouragement, just enough for his hips to drawn back an inch and to push forward two inches, giving her more with each gentle rock. It feels far too good around his already-oversensitive cock, but he manages to meet Jill's kiss and murmur, a little stupid: ]
―I should hope I feel true. I feel true enough.
[ Translation: "can you feel how fucking hard I am inside you???" Again, he feels drunk with it, the entirety of him fixated on Jill and how she makes him feel. The rest of the world has vanished, at this point. ]
[Jill can interpret his meaning. Even when under him, a puddle that could melt right into the thin mattress beneath them, she understands.]
Impossibly. Like marble.
[And he feels as hot as flame around her, inside her. Jill whimpers with pleasure as she wraps her legs around his hips, ready for more, intoxicated with the thought of sheathing him entirely.]
[ Again, he tries not to laugh at the denotation of 'marble', to middling results. ]
Ah, [ he breathes. ] That can't be comfortable.
[ Joking, of course. He knows Jill feels as good as he does, slotted as perfectly as they are, fitting together as if they were born to nest against each other (they were, if he has any say in the matter). A low, shuddering breath, and Clive finally pushes enough so that he's completely inside her, hips bumping and flush as they can be, and the feel of her wrapped around the entirety of him is enough to make Clive feel sentimental about it.
Deep. He's engulfed in her, and his eyes flutter closed for a moment, overcome by how much he's wanted this. How much he needed Jill. ]
There. [ Resting there for a moment, just savoring the feel of her. ] Exactly where I need to be.
[Jill's decided laughter in their bed is absolutely necessary. She breathes out a laugh, too, and the air leaving her lungs somehow seems to allow him in a fraction deeper. When she feels Clive settle, she's surprised they've made it there. Finally. She's stunned, briefly, and then laughs again.]
Oh, Clive. [He's filled her completely, and she thinks if he takes a deep breath, that movement alone would be enough to make her come. Jill slips her arms around him as best she could, wanting more of his weight on top of her, wanting to hold and kiss him.]
You feel so good. I could keep you between my legs forever.
[ He'd joked about discomfort, but Clive still minds his size and her tightness, and keeps himself from pulling Jill's hips up off of the bed to rut into her, desperate and needy. He can hold, and he can wait, and he can breathe. For the first time, he finally inhabits himself as a human and a man with wants and needs: with Jill, he finally feels himself again. Clive Rosfield, not the Dominant of Ifrit or the vessel of God or whatever other title the world sees fit to bestow.
A little stupid with love and lust and affection, he tries calling Jill "Jill Rosfield" in the privacy of his head. It makes him even harder inside her, if that were at all possible. ]
Would that I could indulge that. [ His voice is gravel, slightly strained, but happily. There's just the slightest shift of his hips where they're pressed against Jill's, testing the waters to see if she'd be alright with just the barest suggestion of movement. In, out. Mostly in. ] I'd keep you in my bed and stay inside you until the rest of time.
[ Is that too much? Who cares. He leans forward, carefully applying more weight and pressure, and presses a brief, fond kiss along her smiling lips. ]
Don't be too endearing, [ is another laugh to add to their ever-growing pile. ] I may finish too early.
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Fucking you to your peak, [ he murmurs. ] Then fucking you through it.
[ Unrelenting, until her perfect composure breaks. He thinks she'd make a beautiful mess, puddled under him with all that hair pooling around her like a veil. He'd relish putting her back together, cleaning her with lips and tongue, making her come again shortly after with his mouth.
The thought of it makes his cock twitch; he's crazy about her. ] You'd come as many times as you could bear to.
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[Without breaking eye contact, he takes his fingers between her lips, sucking, before lavishing them with her tongue. If he's going to talk about fucking her, she'll remind him how much she enjoys blowing him. They leave her mouth with a quiet pop, wet.]
I want to know what it feels like to have you buried to the hilt inside me. You're so big. [She's not fluffing his ego at all with that. It's a fact.] I've always wondered how deep you'll be able to go...
[It only got worse once she saw his cock with her own eyes.]
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So he doesn't hesitate. Wet fingers steal back between parted thighs, and he slides them against her waiting cunt, tracing over her with slow, indulgent slicks. Just the feel of her is enough to make him see stars, but it's her heat that really gets him going once he pushes those fingers inwards, draws a soft, choked sound out of him from the back of his throat. ]
As deep as you'd let me. ―Founder, you're so tight.
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How do I ever let you leave my side?
[Duty before love, is how. But here she can be greedy and selfish and not feel bad for it.]
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But he won't overthink it. Not today. And, in turn, he doesn't want Jill to think of him leaving, so: ]
Something you needn't worry about. [ Fingers pressed deep in her, he circles her clit with a thumb in teasing warning: concentrate. ] Be with me now, Jill. Right here.
[ A wolfish half-smile, and he kisses the corner of her mouth. ]
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[She's here. That smile really does do as much for her as his touch, though the latter is what makes her shudder with pleasure. Really, she could look at him all day and never grow bored.]
I've never liked it when other women notice you. [Most towns and cities, even when he was branded, had heads turning to look at him, gazes lingering a moment too long.] But now, I can slip into your arms and kiss you. Claim my territory before hungry eyes.
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It's not even a conscious defense mechanism, at this point. So he doesn't think on it, and laughs under his breath. ]
It never registered. I was too busy looking at you, I think. [ Humming, as he makes more friction with his fingers, testing if Jill will be fine with the slow, steady rhythm he starts to build on. ] But, by all means. Stake your claim― have me as you will, and I'll happily flaunt it.
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Everyone notices you. You're often the tallest man in the room, if not the one with the broadest of shoulders.
[And the sluttiest of waists.]
It feels good to have the freedom to love you openly, Clive.
[Fuck him openly? Not so much. One day, she tells herself, she'll either build solid walls here or they'll live in a place that offers a little more privacy. It doesn't stop her from moaning quietly, giving a roll of her hips to meet his fingers.]
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I could say the same about you. You could have anyone you wanted, and yet you want me.
[ His fingers crook inside of her, and spread just a sliver. ]
...Do you recall when we had to pose as lady and Branded? [ Okay, maybe it's a bit mean to be asking her questions when he's two-fingers deep in her, but still. ] I didn't relish being your servant, but there was a thrill in being yours.
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I've only ever wanted you, Clive. And how fortunate I've been...
[The spread of his fingers, the slight stretch, makes her press her teeth into her bottom lip as she hums, approving. She's wet and getting wetter, though oftentimes a kiss is merely all it takes. He has no idea of the true power he has over her.]
I always--hated that. That one mark made the world see you as less than the rest, when you're the best there is. I much prefer this. My lover and my prince.
[The life of the duchy is far, far behind them in the sense of titles, but a girl can still use it as an endearment.]
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Prince makes him lower his gaze for a moment－ he hasn't been one in ages, not even as a child－ but in Jill's voice, it sounds affectionate instead of taunting. ]
It doesn't matter, how the rest see me. As long as you do.
[ He has reclaimed himself, and put himself in Jill's hands. That's all that will ever matter to him. ]
My love, and my lady. [ He turns his face towards her palm, and kisses along her lifeline. ] How ready do you feel for me?
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Like I might pull your hair out if you keep me waiting a moment more.
[A playful tease--he's a gentleman, making sure nothing will hurt. Her protector in all things, even from himself.]
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You'd love me less if I were bald, [ he says, to the tune of "admit it, you would". Equally as playful, even as he takes care to make Jill ride out the last of his prep, because the last thing he wants is for any part of this ordeal to be uncomfortable for her. This is, ostensibly, his real first time being in bed with someone he's proclaimed his love to, and he won't ruin it due to impatience. ]
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Clive.
[An attempt to sound stern is lost because laughing jostles her just enough to create friction, and she moans. Or groans.]
Certainly, we could find you a wig...
[Lord Elwin didn't live long enough to be able to tell if he would bald at any point. Hmm.]
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The upside is that no one makes him smile as much as Jill does. He takes the time to lean over and kiss her stomach, grinning against her skin. ]
Alright, alright, you've convinced me.
[ Fingers pull out, and travel down to his eager cock. He strokes himself once in anticipation, breathing hotly against Jill's navel. ] No more waiting.
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No more waiting. Come home.
[If it's not too bold to say. He's her home.]
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He rocks into the cradle of her legs, parting them just another inch to let him slide closer to her, hips bracketed by her thighs. He slots himself against her, slicking his arousal over her wetness with a low, shuddering sigh, and resists the urge to shove forward and claim her like some sort of untamed animal.
Instead, the initial push is slow. Careful, but with intent. He concentrates on how she feels, hot and tight and perfect, and tries not to get overwhelmed too quickly; he would actually die if he came prematurely tonight.
On the tail end of a moan, he ventures: ] Alright?
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Even if there's an adjustment--she's glad he's been careful with her, because even horny out of her mind, he's bigger than she is in every way.]
... alright. [It takes her a moment to remember to speak, to breathe.] Slowly, Clive.
[Not that he'll do anything but. A reminder for herself, too. Her hips give a small, experimental roll, and that too has her biting back a moan.]
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His eyes flick down to where they meet, and he breathes a hiss through his teeth at the sight of it. ]
Fuck. [ A low murmur, mostly to himself. ] God, you're perfect.
[ He's overwhelmed, and he hasn't even started moving. Nudging another sliver further, he nuzzles against Jill's forehead and leaves a light kiss along her lips, making sure that he keeps her grounded in his affection. ] I love you, Jill.
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[She pulls him down for another kiss, a deeper one, and slides a hand down his side. At his hip, she pants her palm, fingers pressing into his skin. Encouraging to move a little, with her, as she gives a slow rock of her hips. Inviting him in deeper.]
You feel too good to be true. You've always been.
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―I should hope I feel true. I feel true enough.
[ Translation: "can you feel how fucking hard I am inside you???" Again, he feels drunk with it, the entirety of him fixated on Jill and how she makes him feel. The rest of the world has vanished, at this point. ]
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Impossibly. Like marble.
[And he feels as hot as flame around her, inside her. Jill whimpers with pleasure as she wraps her legs around his hips, ready for more, intoxicated with the thought of sheathing him entirely.]
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Ah, [ he breathes. ] That can't be comfortable.
[ Joking, of course. He knows Jill feels as good as he does, slotted as perfectly as they are, fitting together as if they were born to nest against each other (they were, if he has any say in the matter). A low, shuddering breath, and Clive finally pushes enough so that he's completely inside her, hips bumping and flush as they can be, and the feel of her wrapped around the entirety of him is enough to make Clive feel sentimental about it.
Deep. He's engulfed in her, and his eyes flutter closed for a moment, overcome by how much he's wanted this. How much he needed Jill. ]
There. [ Resting there for a moment, just savoring the feel of her. ] Exactly where I need to be.
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Oh, Clive. [He's filled her completely, and she thinks if he takes a deep breath, that movement alone would be enough to make her come. Jill slips her arms around him as best she could, wanting more of his weight on top of her, wanting to hold and kiss him.]
You feel so good. I could keep you between my legs forever.
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A little stupid with love and lust and affection, he tries calling Jill "Jill Rosfield" in the privacy of his head. It makes him even harder inside her, if that were at all possible. ]
Would that I could indulge that. [ His voice is gravel, slightly strained, but happily. There's just the slightest shift of his hips where they're pressed against Jill's, testing the waters to see if she'd be alright with just the barest suggestion of movement. In, out. Mostly in. ] I'd keep you in my bed and stay inside you until the rest of time.
[ Is that too much? Who cares. He leans forward, carefully applying more weight and pressure, and presses a brief, fond kiss along her smiling lips. ]
Don't be too endearing, [ is another laugh to add to their ever-growing pile. ] I may finish too early.
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apologies for the slowness...! finally back from work-related traveling 🙏
welcome back!!! did you see the logos video the 16 team dropped yesterday 👀👀👀
I DID and i'm begging at SE's altar for content... clive journals about jill... ben starr please
if he doesn't go on about his wifey it's on sight, ben starr
i refuse to believe that clive's journals aren't 95% about wanting to kiss jill
this is canon tbh
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dear diary: we did it 💖
dear diary: we fucked and i cried about it 💖
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